My SenSe & nonSenSe

Three happening months

2010-10-09T05:19:00.012+08:00

Alright, there have been too many things happened for the past three months, I have graduated, I have moved from Nottingham to Liverpool, I have started working, I have been on europe trip with family, I have changed my work place from Wallasey to Prenton, I've been off for holidays and now I finally get to slow down a little and have my own time to do loads of other stuffs which have been accumulating since then. Every single event has been the greatest thing ever happened and it just happened all in a roll. At some point, I felt really tired but actually, contented. I'm feeling really thankful for having my mum's company throughout this critical time, it's a transition from student life to working life, she's been pampering me with her more than excellent cookings plus 'intensive care' and my dad's visit for the past 3 weeks has been the highlight of the 3 months. Just gonna say less but show more pictures now as I'm really tired...physically and mentally! =.=

right after dad's arrival, we've been touring london for 3D2N, i was dead tired even in the beginning of the trip. I'm half an expert now for london's tubes, buses and even cruise! :P

Glasgow, there's nothing much this city can offer really. trust me don't waste your time. We were there partly because we flew from Gatwick airport

Scottish tapas and whisky, not my cup of tea, the haggis and shrimp salad were the nicest of all, the others were a little too raw for me, still fancy cooked food. Oh the famous scottish whisky, the waitress asked 'what kind of whisky would you like? I gave her the ??? look, and she immediately replied 'Are you a whisky drinker? (guess she knows I'm not but just for the sake of asking), then I said 'oh i'm not could you please decide for me', I didnt know what kind of whisky I've drank that day to be honest, she just told me it was something sweet. In fact, it could burn your eosophagus with just tiny little sip!

It has been raining the whole day in Edinburgh, the castle didnt look as spectacular as I expected, everything seemed to be dull probably due to the bad weather, but I like walking along the Royal Mile thou, love the old buildings and roads, it makes you feel like you have gone back to the past of scotland. Edinburgh is much more worth a 2nd visit than Glasgow for sure.

The trip to Sweden and Denmark with my parents has been the most memorable trip I've ever had (not saying formally here but I really mean it, it really was an experience you will remember for life!) I have to mention here, we really appreciate the 5 stars hospitality provided by Marie and Mark, she and her husband have been such a lovely couples making sure we feel at home, they have been a very good tour guide throughout the trip. Thanks for the warm welcomes and goodbyes!

The building behind is called the lipstick as its look, one of the landmark of Halmstad. It was cold in Sweden, well..of course it was. It's really expensive to travel there, you've to pay for the toilet everywhere even when you're dining in the restaurant. As their government tax is really high (higher than UK, around 30% and you pay tax on utility as well) hence the high living expenses. The life of the people there seem much more relaxed than British, slower pace I supposed, and they live in big houses and have huge backyard gardens, how lovely the life would be but the weather kind of put me off immediately I think about it :P

On the way from Gothenburg, we drove past an IKEA, its originated from Sweden! We actually went in one of the IKEA and tried the real famous Swedish meat balls, a must try during your visit! Also don't forget to nip in a copy of original swedish IKEA catalogue, it's a souvenior for people like me who doesn't want to pay but still want to keep something as memory HAHAH although I serious don't know how to read apart from looking at the pictures in it :P

An expected disappointment was that the famous mermaid in Denmark has been moved to display at Shanghai EXPO 2010, hence the big screen there playing live video of the mermaid in the hall, to cheer the tourists up a little, well...just a little mermaid.

Tell you what, this is a must try in Denmark, a long slim red sausage! I forgot what it's name but taste fabulous!!! Very chewy and elastic outer skin, the meat is really juicy and yummy too, you can have it with mustard or ketchup as you like. It's the most amazing sausage I've tasted so far. I love to recommend good food, this one has to be top of the list, its even better than german curry wurst trust me

and many more photos at:
http://www3.snapfish.co.uk/snapfishuk/projectshareewelcome/l=2037732010/p=340191287512273829/g=2832354010/cobrandOid=1007/COBRAND_NAME=snapfishuk/otsc=SYE/otsi=SPBKlink/

right...I can hear my stomach's grumbling now at the time of nearly 12am, it's about time to feel hungry and to sleep over so that you won't be over-feeding. So good night everybody, I shall update a little bit more about life in Liverpool next time as I'm now moving into the 2nd phase of settling down, hope I will be fine =)

HOT!!!

2010-05-27T21:07:00.009+08:00

Unbelievable! It's been nearly 2 weeks, I feel itchy all over my body especially limbs ever since landed on the land of Fire, I don't think the temperature has ever gone down to less than 30 degree celcius since I touched down, I doubt I'm having some kind of prickly heat symptom, it gets better when I'm focusing on something and forgets about the heat, gets worst when I'm doing nothing and feel the burning sensation right above my skin, strange...I miss UK's weather so so much!

A prescription for myself, I need to shower three times a day, drink water when necessary, stay cool at all time. This afternoon I wanted to have a cold water bath, so I turned on the shower without turning on the heater, SHAAAAAAHHHH a stream of warm water splashing onto my hot body *deeply disappointed* the water from the tank has been heated up by the bright sunshine throughout the morning and the water was still warm eventhough it was not heated =.= Another solution, I cut my hair!!! I told the hairdresser (yun's mum) to cut it as short as possible, every time she surprised me with her excellent hair cutting skills, I love each new hair style designed by her, thanks so much auntie~~~

my hair stayed straight and flat on the first day, it curled and bounced a little thereafter. But still, love it.

Anyway, the past weeks have never been better, rest enough, play enough, sleep enough, eat enough, paktoh enough (never enough for this :P), watch TV enough, walk enough, wash enough (been cleaning the house). Life is so good, a truly summer holiday for me, the only worry is to think about how to entertain myself to past everyday, being at home is so so great despite the extremely hot weather :D

Birthday celebration at home the home home

Birthday celebration with Airen *muakss*

Second bouquet in my life, surprised by Airen. oopps I still havnt chosen my present >.<

Cher really came to Penang (not for me of course), gave me a belated birthday hug as promised, thank you!

Beach girls, taken beside the hotel where Cher's family has been the loyal VIP customer for years, even the doorman sees her growing up from a little girl to the pretty lady today, LOL.

Met Juli, Chong Ngie, Natasha and Jasmine yesterday and day before, just realised that even I've been away from Uni life and all have splitted and back home, but uni's friends are still always there. *touched* One more thing, it seems that everyone is complaining about the same thing 'it's too hot!!!'

Why I brought so many jeans back home?!!! wasted my luggage weight! Anyway, SIA was too good to say yes to my 26kgs baggage when the limit was only 20kgs. Another thumb up for Singapore Airline!

Nobody can stop me from going British Musuem this time!

2010-04-26T19:01:00.014+08:00

A pictures walk-down of what happened in the 2 days in LONDON, a place where you can not stop finding things to do.

Great weather, passed by these huge chimneys which could normally see from far only

the pretty lady was posing for me, and the SNOG yogurt indulgence! a must-try in London

the long known Trafalgar square, nice place to hang out on sunny days

this is an interesting fact to share, the centre point to measure the distance of main cities from London, thanks Ngee for the info.

The Apollo Victoria Theatre, where we watched wicked witch of OZ

Nice interior design, the musical was quite good, very colorful stage design...very magical at some point...

The couple Kelvin&Eunice spent their night with us, thanks for coming really

Another couple Hong&Ying spent a night with us in Russel Square without prior notice, I can't resist myself from taking this photo, not supposed to be publicised, well at least not in FB. nobody will read this anyway hehehe

Finally I made it to British Museum, one of the greatest achievement really, thanks to Ngee for insisting to go.

Camden Market was really like petaling street in KL, but a better renovated version. Every corner of it seems to give you different feelings and inspiration, highly recommended to everyone =) Ngee seems to know lots of good place to go in London

Here it is, the High Commission of Malaysia in London, passport renewal process was quite efficient, apart from the machine broke down issue which made us waited for nearly 2hours, it could have been faster. Overall, you get the feel of being in Malaysia as you hear the familiar acccent, the small kitchen selling nasi lemak and kueh, friendly malay staffs who can speak hokkien with you if he found out you are hokkiek lang LOL Another extra point to mention is that, on your new passport, the place of issue will be ' High Commission of Malaysia, London' COOL MAN >.< 50GBP spent worthwhile :P

Can't help smiling

2010-04-19T03:21:00.009+08:00

YES! finally our europe tour has been finalised and the only thing left is the anticipation for it come, I'm so happy! I'm currently in the excited state, it's so hard to keep it from people how happy I am now, I even made my Nasi Lemak this way...

I think I will just keep on smiling like my nasi lemak did, can't wait to go home to sink my teeth into a proper authentic nasi lemak and everything else!

Just hoping that the Iceland's Ey......something volcano (Eyjafjallajoekull is the right name) will stop erupting soon or the wind will change direction, then my trip to go HOME will be secured =)

Recently I've resumed my work on flowers' photo collection again, continuation from last Spring. This deadly Spring, kinda disappointing because of the inconsistency of the rain and sun, flowers are not bloomed to it's prettiest and under the best nurtured way, even blossom on the trees have been late.

A week after taken this photo, the flowers have all died because of the return of the cold

A week after taken this photo, all petals have dropped to the ground because of strong wind

I was arguing (well...discussing) with someone about the name of this plant, and I was too stubborn and being denial that it is the BUTTERCUP. It's a fact, there's no point to argue and got angry about myself for not knowing the name of this little plant. In the end, I was awaken by 'you always want to be right', thanks for saying that :/

Botanical knowledge of the day: Buttercup is called bouton d'or in french.

It's almost going to the end of thesis writing, and London here I come, be wicked, am going to watch Wicked! ^_^

Subway Awesome

2010-04-10T20:50:00.004+08:00

A quick view of liverpool's blossom

I like SUBWAY, and now I like it even more! There's a reason why subway has such a long history in their fast food franchise bussiness, having to survive under the competition of so many fast food restaurants, but stil growing stronger and bigger. Not only it's freshly served sandwiches, but also it's thumb up-ed customer services.

I myself have had a bad Subway moment on Easter Monday in Liverpool, but it quickly regained my trust as soon as I made a complaint. Out of my expectation, the area manager has done a great job in sorting out this issue as soon as he could and I'm completely satisfied with it. Just a little small matter which involved a small amount of money, at least I'm impressed with how good the UK is, in being a country where people are free to speak and feedback and reflect.

If you have time, please read the incident below (conversation between me and the Subway Manager through email) and be more positive of making any complain in the future =)

I'm SS, your customer who has used debit card for a transaction to pay a set of meal deal on the 6th April in you branch of Subway at the exchange street, Liverpool. I just realised that I've been charged twice in my account, one 3.48GBP and another 4.79GBP. It was like this, after I chose to get the meal deal and paid 1GBP extra to get the subway refillable cup, I was told by the cashier to pay 3.48GBP at the till, so I did. Then, I went on to eating my meal and the cashier came back to me saying that she did not get the transaction through and asked me to go back to pay again. Hence, I paid at the till again using my debit card, and realised that it was supposed to be 4.49GBP because the meal deal itself was 3.49GBP and 1GBP for the cup. However, the cashier and the manager said there were some new settings in the cash machine that they could not manage to charge the meal deal and the cup accordingly, so they put the transaction total as 4.79GBP and gave me 30pence in cash for change. I agreed without realising that they did actually charged the first transaction of 3.48GBP until I saw my bank account history today.

So, would you please sort this out for me by refunding 3.48GBP, your attention will be very much appreciated.

Thank you for your comments regarding your visit to our SUBWAY, Exchange Street.
All SUBWAY Restaurants strive to supply our customers with excellent service, great tasting food and 100% accuracy of orders. We know this is an awesome goal to consistently reach however comments from our customers ensure that we keep our goals on track and we appreciate customers taking the time to advise us if they are less than happy.
Please accept my sincere apologies, if you would like to go into the store and ask for the manager we can organise a refund?
Please be assured this matter has been taken seriously, and your comments have been addressed with the Area Manager, who will endeavor to ensure incidences such as these do not happen again in the future.
Once again, please accept my sincere apologies for your upset.
Regards
XX

Thanks for your quick reply. I will not be able to visit the store in Exchange street, Liverpool as I'm already back to Nottingham now. Would it be possible to refund it in the Subway store in Nottingham, or refund me through bank transfer is fine for me.

Unfortunately Subway is a franchise owned business and we do not links with other stores outside of the North West, in addition we do not have any outgoing payment facility.
I can send you vouchers for 2 free Meal Deals, each voucher is to the value of £3.99?
Please accept our sincere apologies.

Thanks for your offer, yes that is a great idea to receive the vouchers for compensation.

Can you please confirm your postal address and I will get them in the post this evening.

These series of reply happened in one day, I'm impressed by how fast the manager acts. Then, two days later I've got my free meal deal vouchers in my mailbox! One word to describe this, EFFICIENT ^.^

OKAY I'm so so hot, it's spring but it's almost like summer. I just realised that I've got only one Hacks left, only one left!!! I'm going to eat it now and start craving for it until I go back to Malaysia in 4 weeks time YEAHHH

GLP two

2010-03-25T15:50:00.004+08:00

The first sign of Spring...taken one week ago.

It's already the end! It's the end of my practical work in the CBS, C35. But that doesn't mean I don't have nothing to do anymore, in fact there are even more things coming towards me, the writing up of thesis seems to be an annoying part of doing a research, especially with chemistry paper as you need to include all your hard-work-analysed data of each compound as an appendix in the dissertation, and probably nobody bother reading it, it's just a supplementary, I won't even get merit for that. How sad...

Easter, lots of plan with lots of mission, the most important task being hunting a room in Liverpool, second being renewing my passport in London, 3rd being completion of my final year project. well, actually the last one has to be prioritized, so lets get cracking on the writing up first(quote from task supervisor).

Thanks to the anonymous who left a very encouraging comment on my previous post GLP one. Because of this, I make this 2nd post in the same month, exceptionally just for this time, hope it helps in your college assignment again =)
I don't know how many chance in your life, you would ever encounter using Benzyl Bromide, probably not even once, maybe it's quite a rare ingredient in chemistry synthesis. But for the only one time that I used it, I've totally got the taste of it. It made me cry! As in tearing uncontrollably, tears just welled up in your eyes and pouring out like rain. hahaha, kind of exaggerated but it's almost as if there's something really sad happened to me. Think about it, it's been ages ago since I last cried, it's actually not too bad as I got to wash out my eyes little bit and re-activate my tear glands making sure that the biological function is still working properly :P

Initially I didnt know that it was the benzyl bromide which caused me to cry, I thought it was because of my cold and that sort of congested my nose and that's why tears were flowing towards the eyes (you know the nose and eyes are connected by a 'tunnel'). I realised my theory was wrong when I was weighing up to the 3/4th tube of the 7 tubes altogether, something's really strange as I didn't feel my nose block but the tears were still flooding out. I tried to close my eyes and rest it but it didn't help. Without being alert to any safety precaution, I continued weighing it till the last tube. And then, my task supervisor came in and noticed that I was 'crying'. Well...he should have told me the fact that benzyl bromide is an irritant compound and should be weighed in the fume hood not in the open air. However, it's all my fault for not doing the risk assessment before the start of my synthesis. So, I had to suffer it...I was shoo-ed from the lab to get some fresh air from the outside for 15mins, actually I was feeling fine after 5mins and insisted to go back into the lab again as there were still many tasks left to be done, but I was shoo-ed away again. So, I waited the time to pass, while my tears getting lesser and lesser...went back in and continue my work with a strange feeling that I actually cried for nothing for the first time ever.

So, Good Laboratory Practice 2: Revise risk assessment for each chemical used prior the start of your practical.

okay, that's it for today, need to go CBS now to finish my last bit of NMR analysis!

Hope to see more flowers, bloom for a longer period please

Good Laboratory Practice

2010-03-15T00:49:00.007+08:00

Unbelievable, it's already the 8th week of my practical for final year project! It seems like it was just yesterday when I first met my task supervisor, first day having fun in the lab playing with chemicals, oh dear...so many things have happened and solved and settled and now many more things are coming to be done, ENDLESS work to do man! But, I have a feeling that I will be reluctant to leave the lab on the last day, the lab is like my 2nd home now, I've been spending most of my time there synthesising and taking care of my beloved chemical compounds, we have formed strong chemistry bonds already...I will cherish my last week in the lab =)

Anyway, ever do something this stupid in the lab before? If you havnt, then learn from my mistake.

One fine day, I was tyring to clean my lab specs and thinking that using some solution would be a good idea, so then I grabbed the ACETONE which is used to clean glassware, splashing it onto my specs and started rubbing it with a piece of tissue. As a consequences...

the more I rubbed, the blurrer the lens become, the more scratches on my specs! I was wondering what the hell was happening, so I showed it to my task supervisor and I gained a round of laughter from my colleagues, Oh yes I wasnt the first dummie who have done that, at least someone used to be as stupid as me (doesnt imply anyone one here :P) Unfortunately, it was my only lab specs that can fit nicely onto my 'big skull' and doesnt put any pressure on the side of my head, I just murdered it under my hand on the second day I brought it to the lab -____- Anyway, I was lucky enough that my task supervisor was ordering a new one for me, a brand new one which I could choose from a nice catelogue! *touching*

So, Good Laboratory Practice 1: Do not wash plastic-made items with ACETONE, use METHANOL instead.

It was so clean and clear back in Malaysia Campus, huge contrast to the terrible state now.

stay tune for GLP chapter 2 ^.^

Sainsbury's inconvenience

2010-02-20T22:04:00.004+08:00

well I'm not saying that I don't like shopping in Sainsbury's, in fact I prefers to get my groceries in Sainbury's more than any other super markets such as Tesco or Asda. It is only the Beeston Sainsbury's that brings this problem to me, no where else.

Ever wonder why would someone need to sneak in a supermarket and shopping in a way as if you are a thief? let me tell you my real experience, its so laughable. It's been nearly a year I have to choose particular days to go to Sains, definitely not Tues Wedn Thurs Fri and Sat, as these days D is in store. Sat is permittable as D only works till 2pm. And I thought I would never ever bump into him anymore as I'm giving my highest alert to 'screen through targets' while I'm in the store.

One fine day last 2 weeks, it was a Fri. I had no choice but to get something from Sains. Here comes the one in a thousand million chance to meet him again ever since our last meet a year ago. I was so super duple lucky that I realised his existence before he notice me. It happened when I went into an aisle with spaghetti sauce, I was browsing through the ranges of sauces trying to look for some promotional items, and I was there for quite some time probably about 5minutes contemplating on which one is better. Then, I turned around and saw a familiar shadow...a shadow of an old man squatting down facing backwards to me, arranging some can foods on the shelves. My first instinct told me that he was D!!! I ran, to be more accurate, I walked as quick as I could and as quiet as I could to the end of the aisle and started stalking him from the side of the rack, PHEWWWWWW big relief that he didnt see me at all! I had a feeling to leave Sains straight away but I realised that I still have few other things to buy, so in the end I spent another terrific 30minutes in Sains looking around like I'm about to make a crime and get only stuffs that I want without spending much time on second thoughts, it was a memorable day to me.

Ever wonder why I never go over and say HI to this old friend? A week ago, he sent me this email:

Hi,last night I eliminated you from my list of friends in both Windows Messenger & Facebook. For6 months I think of you,waiting to see you,thinking we are friends. Always you say you so busy;I only have to look in Facebook to see it is more than just studies keeping you busy,but no time for me !
I am sorry,upset,& unhappy but now try to forget you. Soon you will go home,think we never again see each other. I am not a stupid,unkind person,just think that you never intend to see me. Good bye!

ok now still havnt got an idea why would I ran away from him? It's actually started when I knew this Sainbury's staff (nicknamed: D) in the beginning of year 3, me and my roommate shopped at Sains almost every weekend to stock up our food supplies and we (or should say I) often bumped into this 'friendly' D and sometimes have a little chat and I was just being polite as he's been so friendly to people.

One day, he gave me his email address and asked me to send him emails n keep in touch, I didnt bother lots because I thought we would still be able to see each other in Sains regardless of emailing him or not. So, that small piece of paper was eventually being rested on my table for quite sometimes. Then one fine day again, he mentioned about the email that he has given me and questioned me why havnt I added him, he is using facebook so I thought maybe its not harmful to add him on FB since its just a click away and so I did. I didnt bother much because since another coursemate of mine has added him later too. He was lovely when one day he found out from our conversation that my birthday was just over, he quickly gave me a birthday card out of no where when I was paying out at the till. That really surprised me thou. He also gave me books for travel in Wales when he found out that I would like to go to beach during summer, it was so kind of him. He told me things about Liverpool and I learnt some british cultures from him too.

I began to feel the annoyance when he started sending emails with lots of disgusted words (maybe for some people, it is a way of being friendly, but for me it means overfriendly), and attached pictures of him taken with other chinese ladies/girls, this makes me feel that he is some kind of chinese woman pervert and specialised in targeting chinese students from University of Nottingham, that thought thrills me whenever I read his email. The thing is, I seldom reply him if I did, it would have been just once of twice, because I really cannot accept making a friend who has 'special habits'.

This was one of his friendly email:
Hi,just let you know I am still alive !How are you,do you survive both the exams & the unusual warm weather which today has again reverted back to normal U.K weather !Yesterday I said good bye to my Chinese friend,going home for 4 weeks holiday,Also good bye to Vietnam friend,this time so sad as she goes home after 6 years here,so we both think never see each other again,'tho maybe she returns for graduation but most unlikely.Now,only 2 weeks since I saw you,it seems much longer ! Will I se you again,I very much hope so! Also I ask you to be Facebook friend Can I also expect you accept me as another friend !!When will you leave for your placement,I know I will miss you during this time.Also I go to France at end of this month,so good to get away from the crazy stores,why am I still working there,it It is me who is the crazy one ! But then I would not have met you so something good comes with working there !
So many things I want to talk with you so until next time,can we be friends,take care,no worries,only sunshine & smiles every day, best wishes,David He even sent me his photos in France after coming back from the trip, but I did not reply :P

And more emails:
Hi,long time no see,so how is life? Where are you these days,I keep looking for you coming to the stores. So many Asian friends going home,some I never see again,friends I have known some more than 3 years,one Iknow for 6 years !! All this make it a sad time,some time I think why should I make friends or try to help,they all leave eventually.Is this what happens between you & me !!Again I have not been 100% fit,this time with eye infection,maybe 'cos only one eye prevents me from seeing you !!

Hi,Kawan! Apa khabar ?Saya amat merindui anda ! No more,so poor !Some pics.from Bulgaria.I look for you but where are you !And yes,I have missed you,more than I realise ! Let me know if & when you get free time,TX me 079834834,I do want see you again !If only to help increase M'sian words ! Take care forever friends & keep in touch.I ask you be friend on Windows messenger,is o.k ?

Saya amat meriinduianda! No more,that is why I want you teach me more M'asian !!
But more than teach me,I want to see you again,Summer is ending & so log since I last saw you in the stores. I am hoping you get some free time soon ?I don't know why ,when I write message to you on Windows Messenger,it is not sent to you?Also have a new mobile,same number,07983483468, TX me to talk !!!In other words,I am always thinking of you,so take it easy,I really have missed you !!!! Can we forever be friends, best wishes,wait to hear from you via email,Messenger or mobile Best wishes,from David Jumpa lagi,salamat jalan !!

And many more MSN messages which I didnt save in history, I read it out to my roommate sometimes and she felt disgusted too. Not intending to make you vomit here so as a summary, he is acting really strange and that's the reason why I have to avoid seeing him. Now that he seems to have got mad on me being so cold and no reponse at all, it's even a good outcome for myself.

Today, I went to Sains on Sat morning. Another terrifying moment in Sains happened when I was pushing a trolley walking along the corridor, he was walking towards me. I sincerely have to say a big THANKS to my roommate for calling me to tell me that he is in Sains and asked me to be extra alert. As I was behaving like a thief again, utilising a 'high screening throughput' system at all timein store. I spotted he was just right infront of me and without hesitation, I drived my trolley into an aisle in one milli seconds. hahahhaha PHEWWWWW again it was another memorable day for me.

I hope I will never have to do this the third time, will I?

Europe we're coming!!!

2010-02-11T18:24:00.003+08:00

YEAAHHHH it will definitely be the best trip ever, because of the accompany of my beloved family as well as this...

Our official DSLR of the europe trip

All credits to my sis and bro who have utilised their professional analysis and photography experience as well as their fever and enthusiasm towards being a part-time photographer, here she is! The NIKON D3000 tada~

Eventhou I have had not enough sleep recently due to someone, after a soothing chat with my family and KKL, I feel recharged again! I guess this is the power of LOVE we've been talking about =)

I've got a feeling...

2010-02-02T06:37:00.002+08:00

woo hoo...tat this sem's gonna b a good good sem, tat the work's gonna b a fun fun work...^.^ I love my final year project and my teammates so so much!!!

but sadly...mummy sed i must give up getting british driving licence in this final semester of my uni life T.T

You've won a bid on ebay!

2010-01-18T23:43:00.003+08:00

As a result of destressing during the exam period...this is the consequences...

damn it, i love this winter boots soo much! wat a great coincidence to have won it by surprise teheheh

soo comfy and furry...pls snow again pls! bcos i wan u to be not only fashionable but practicable as well >.<

okie...im going to stay away from my lappie for awhile, its not healthy, at least for my results :P

its another year...but this time is diff!

2009-12-31T19:15:00.008+08:00

haihz...another 12hours from now, you can tear off the last page of your traditional chinese lunar calendar (awww...i miss doing that, hope this kind of calendar wont go extinct), or if you are a moderner, just throw away your calendar poster/calendar book/calendar card or whatever you use to check dates, but obviously not your handphone/ ipod touch/laptop because they will update automatically eventhough you do not wish to, sadly that TIME is always out of our control, and when you hear tic toc tic toc tic tic toc toc ding ding dang dang dong dong...that means its time to fix your clock!!! HAHAHAHAHAHAA

I have a whole list of tasks to be accomplished in year 2010. Most of them are compulsory thou. I wonder how many I will have achieved when I look back to this post a year later. Here it goes the list...

1. Get a British Driving Licence
2. Renew my passport in London
3. Buy a new phone, preferably iphone 3GS ( how I wish my phone to die now :P lets curse it!!! heheheh)
4. Apply for visa, and please get approved please
5. Europe trip with family (definitely the most anticipating)
6. Have the most important dinner with KKL's family (omg this kinda frighten me >.<)
7. Confess to my family about...you know...(omg this also as scarry)
8. Buy a car? (hmmm...abit mission impossible in short term but I love driving!)
9. Go to a place with blue sea blue sky with KKL (so romantic rite!)
10.Find my accommodation in Liverpool before May ( unfortunately this has to be done before I can enjoy anything listed above T.T)
11.I think should let the list stop here if not it'll be infinity hehehehhe

All right, I think nearly 90% of the tasks are achievable, I just need to plan my time well so that there will be no clashing.

Anyway, recently I'm so happy because I bought myself a new glasses~~~ but not many people would have noticed it because I chose a similar frame design as my old one ( and nowadays rarely meet people because everyone is fighting hard for exam now!), they only differ in colours, my current one is blondish brown, hehehe it certainly makes me look more professional like a prof pharmacist, if not a smarter look pharmacy student :P

The second thing that made my day was the gift from KKL, it arrives just at the right time when I need these things, just like a winter warmer (eventhough I've had loads of them but they are unique!)...warms my body and my heart as well! muaksss love you lots yea XOXO p/s: sorry if you have not received my parcel, I think there are seriously some problems going on with Royalmail, I hate it ever since summer because it delayed my Boots offer letter for 5 weeks due to the recurrent postal strike issues, damn it, what now? Anyway, my friend who is a GOD in eBay said I can claim it back hehehhee no worries~~~

And the Boxing Day SALES was indeed getting more and more crazy. It was a productive day for me, its always good to reward yourself when its neccessary hehehhe (excuses excuses excuses...) BUT, I really worked hard this year okay! in terms of studies and part-time job, so I deserved it! ngiak ngiak

Did I ever mention about a pot of flowers given by my friend? It's a British Potmum, it sounds weird but this is the name of the plant. I would like to just make a quick summary of the life of this little pot of flowers (more accurately plant as there are no more flowers blooming now, its winter!!!) Its growing healthily under my care...I wish it survives the tremendously cold winter and brings me some flowers when the heavenly springs arrives!

During summer, my friend has really caught me by surprise when I saw it sitting on the study table, very touched lor...

A little note from him, what a reason to give me the flowers, its never his responsibility to the death of my first pot of chrysanthemum!

When autumn came, the yellow colour faded! well, it kinda mutated to my first pot of chrysanthemum which was white flowers hehehhe

Winter time, the last but not least flower was trying her best to show her last smile to her master, I hope she says to me: 'byebye and we shall see again in spring!'

Well, this was my beloved first pot of white chrysanthemum, the time when she was vigorously blooming in the peak of spring. can you see the diff?!! nothing can replace her status in my heart LOL Im just kidding.

Thanks for giving me such a nice pot of flowers really, I'm taking good care of her now, watering her on every sunny days. I wish she will be with me as long as I've never given up on her ^.^

overflow with LOVE

2009-11-29T06:04:00.005+08:00

omg, I can't believe its almost the end of the semester, I've been so busy and everything just past by in a blink of an eye, from solving one assignment to another, from attending one lecture to another, from going to work one day after another, from joining one trip to another...its been really an eventful semester! I'm feeling contented and satisfied now, and probably its time to take a proper rest and focus on my studies which should always be my main intention in university life, right?

Just recently, I told a friend about the story of QQ, and obviously I still have not lost my feeling towards him, because I still miss him very much and was trying my best to hide my sadness whilst I was telling the lengthy and dramatic story. Its so amazing that a pet can leave such a big impact in one's life, I certainly have no idea how long is it going to take for me to stop thinking about him but definitely I will not forget QQ as long as I am living in this world. He is such a lovely pet, all because he is very loyal and sincere...no matter to whom, he is always the lively and cheerful pet that everyone loves, he does not lie or act, he is very natural which is the characteristic that can hardly find in human beings anymore. Nowadays, people always think and process data in a complicated way and show it in a way that they think its right, but very often, the feedback arent always good. well anyway...all I want to say is, QQ is just like a perfect human's friend which does not exist in reality so he turned into a dog and brought happiness to my family, and then leaving us with a feeling of sorrow but a sweet unforgettable memory. Deep down in our hearts, we know that QQ understand how we precious him and we are still waiting for his return even though it seems to be impossible. Hope drives me through...I wish QQ to live a happy life wherever he is now T.T we love you forever

going to the beach with QQ, knowing that he is leaving soon, the feeling is hard, separation is cruel...

Also, would like to thank kitesman again for showing me the existence of love, the non-selfish care and support. All I want is you right now to be beside me but unfortunately this is the only thing that I can not have...why is the world so unfair? How long I have to suffer to have something that everyone else has? Do I have a choice? Am I the one who make decision? How does a decision come to a conclusion? After some time, I realised that things are always not under your control even though you are supposed to be able to change something, its all because there are too many factors contributing to one outcome and it takes a longer time to consider and to make things happen. So, lets just see what the time can show us...feeling helpless but the continuous supply of LOVE keeps me going...

Miss our baby so much, when can I see him again? Is he kept in somewhere safe?

Another issue is, can someone suggest me the best way of announcing a relationship which has been hidden from parents for 4 years? Is there a proper way which reduces the blames to the least? tell me if you know

Hold On

2009-10-14T01:16:00.006+08:00

The world is such an adorable place when you realise that you have someone to hold on to...

When I'm sick of socialising, I have family to hold on to, and they will never ever complain about not keeping in touch with them as often as I do with my friends, they wish to talk to me more just to make sure that I am doing all right but I just hope I can spend more time with them. They give me the freedom to do whatever I like, to make any decision I want, to live the life I want to live, yet they never get sick of supporting me, giving me the care and trust that I always needed. I can count on them whenever and wherever I am...

When I'm sick, literally sick which I don't always, I can hold on to my friends, as you know friend is the most precious gift when you're outside of your home. Eventhou sometimes I do not care much about them, I do not give the same amount of care that my friend gave me, to them, but they always show their care towards me without hesitation. Today, I'm so touched because Belachan made me a thermoflask of hot honey lemon and gave me Dequadin for my sore throat. I was wondering if I deserve to get all these treatment, as I know I do not normally do that to my friends. There might be a few times when I just simply made her unhappy or said something wrongly that hurts her feeling, but she is just too kind to remember that. I should apologise here for always not remembering what she has told me...AHAHHA my fault ok? Anyway, I just want to say, she really made me feel that I have someone to count on when I am so far away from home, thanks and I wish I can learn more from you, not your ke-tidak-apa-ness but your kindness LOL

stupid faces of us

When I need to make a complain about life, I can just blurt it out to kitesman, he is the one who always be there to listen and to explain, analyse the whole thing and tell me how to solve the problem. In my heart, I know I can hold on to him...as long as he holds on to me. I know we are getting busy, with his thesis and my lectures occupying up our time, it really needs extra patience to hold on to it. But I know we can make it, because we have faith in each other.

Maybe I look like a very independent girl (not to mention lady) to you, but I can't always take everything up myself, I need the moment of holding on to someone too...the moment where I can just be carelessness while receiving care from the others. And I sincerely know, they are always there for me to count on...

Thanks for holding on to me! muaksssss

Anyway, let me just stop being so emotional. okay...Over the summer, I found out that I am the type of girl (not yet a woman) which the facial presentation can be easily ruined by make-up. I find myself look extremely weird and not to mention ugly when I put things on my face. What's wrong with me? can I just blame on my round moon face? Well I have to say those foundations, mascaras, eyeliners, lipsticks are just not ever going to be my partner, sorry to say that to all cosmetics company out there I know its really hard to earn my money >.< below are proofs that I should not wear any make-upsss

It's Layteng's hen's nite party in Liverpool, I was extraordinary fair...wth...and the sparkling eyeshadows...almost stole all de limelight -_______-

OMG take a closer look, I've basically turned into a white rabbit, and the fact that I left my contact lens in Notts just spoilt everything no matter how nice the make-up is *.*

The end of placement, the end of summer

2009-09-02T17:02:00.007+08:00

I know! I've been away from blogspot for 3 months!!! Most of the time has been spent in the pharmacy...I've been looking at the Green Prescriptions for bloody 3 months!!! OMG please don't show me anymore prescription until next year's summer if not I will slap you! LOL

Yeah finally I'm done with my summer placement, but it also means summer is going to an end. I'll precious the remaining two weeks holiday that I have, will be travelling with friends to Liverpool, London and Manchester! Finally I have time for myself to really explore Liverpool, I've been a tour guide in here for so many times but I have not really see the city from the way I want yet...heheh I like free and easy style...slowly discover some secret places, hidden streets that people rarely talk about...yes now that I have time, I'm going to do it! and I know...its a shame that I've been in the UK for one year plus but stil have not been to London! I'm going to do it!

Also, I want to finish up LOST which I've started back in Nottingham, good recommendation from Hon Chien really, I like the series.

here I share some interesting experience of me in the pharmacy. Last semester, I've studied about DENATURING OF CONTROLLED DRUGS in the university but have no idea how does it work. and finally, I've got the chance to do it and it was really FUN! but I cut myself thou...and I can stil see the scarr on my thumb now >.< but nevermind, NO PAIN NO GAIN right!

the denaturing kit!!! breaking and blending tablets

de combination of colours is so nice!

now is de most dangerous part of de process, i hav to say des is not de best way of getting rid de ampoules!!! I've got cut while trying to break de glass, and I suspect there were trace of morphine sulphate in my body now LOL

throw everything into de CD denaturing kit...including de broken glass...and I think my trace of fresh blood as well...LOL so sS

and finally, add water up to de line and give it a shake, swirl and here u go...de yucky yucky mixture of all CDs...you will become a monster if you accidentally consume this devil potion made by siu

Okiela...thats all for this month and I'm going to tidy up Lay Teng's house now because the house is so beautiful!!! I love staying here and they treat me so well...love them all!!! *muakkss*

Home is the best vacation destination

2009-06-30T05:06:00.013+08:00

Guess what, I went back to Malaysia for just one week!!! I know you must be shocked, well everyone gave me the same reaction, hahahah. okay...the air ticket was very very cheap, only 430pounds return for Malaysia Airline, and yes its Malaysian airline's direct flight which includes KLIA to Penang International Airport! thanks to (swine flu), LOL for changing my mind to go back to Malaysia before graduation, by causing a great reduction in air ticket's price...last but not least, a big thank you to the most awesome family who made all of these amazing things happened, luv u all lots!

This whole week was just free and easy at home in penang and home town, made me feel really relaxing and warming...i mean the weather too LOL

the first time of me seeing penang island and penang bridge from the sky!!! *excited*

Family day to Botanical Garden, this is where we always come during the weekend for jogging and having some close to the nature activities. The once a year Flora Fest was hold at the same time when we went, my bro used my cam to take lots of closed up photos of flowers which took up lots of my cam's memory space, not gonna upload here probably in facebook one day, heheh sorry yi kor

Mummy is getting younger, don play play she is a chinese medicine sinsei now!

Dad is stil de same humourous person, we had some river adventure moment there LOL

Mari-mari, durian n manggis beli-beli

The precious one hour in TGIF

Confession to my roommie

Also, would like to use this blog to send my most sincere and deepest thank you to my ex-roommate Dee Sin as she has been a really good roommate in the past year and I know sometimes she has to bare with me with quite alot of things but she just tolerated well with me and glad that we have never had any serious big fight-in-the-room like the twin used to stay on top of our room, LOL. Here, I would like to apologise if there's anything which I have done that made you feel unhappy and angry, please forgive me. I know throughout this year, we've been coupled up to become quite a good cook, I will certainly miss those dishes that we've created together, those time that we hold events in our room, those stressful time when we didnt talk to each other but dating with our handouts and books day and night, and the time when we had little secret chat in our room...hmmm...they are all good memeory to be kept forever in my heart. Last but not least, I want to say THANK YOU again for your little gift and touching notes in my birthday card. I have not prepared anything for you but an effort to bring our friendship becomes closer in the future! Hope that you will have a good time staying in Dunkirk and will visit whenever I smell something nice at BGP from the direction of Dunkirk hahahahahah

stupid thing we've done in our room

she teman-ed me to shop for souveniors n take photos of beeston to show it to my family, so sweet rite

hmmm due to having inconsistent internet connection in my current address now, I don't think I have anymore patience to wait for the slow uploading time, will update again when the internet gets better.

CAOZ...

I've got a real 'French Kiss' today!

2009-05-15T05:59:00.010+08:00

OMG now i know why people say french is the sexiest people in the world, hahaha JER VIA BIANG MESI
learnt a new french language today! it means 'im fine thank you'

today is actually my last day of working in the Rutland Hall (well...hopefully is the last day only for this semester, and im always hoping to work with the same boss and colleagues again next semester!). the french colleague gave me a real French Kiss hahahha of course I returned her with a big MUAKSSS. to be honest, this is my first time kissing a female, out of my expectation that actually made me feel really nice. I hope she will be doing fine after this, as she said she might be leaving the UK and go back to Itali for a job in a chinese restaurant, I wished her all the very best, take care my dear friend eventhou I only get to know you better since today. hahahaha

Also, today is my first day of working in the Pot Wash! that is why i have had the chance to know her better as she is the pot wash lady and i am usually a dining room lady. MALANG lah i could have worked in the Dining Room for the Formal Dinner tonight but all thanks to my stupidity that I didnt know the attire for formal dinner is white collar shirt and black skirt. I just went to work with my usual black polo and long pants, was kind of shocked when i saw all my fellow colleagues and friends (was shocked the second time when i saw YIMENG and others working in MY HALL!) were wearing white shirt. luckily I've got a nice boss who didnt even scold me or angry at me, but gave me options to choose what I would like to work instead, so kind of him right? heheheh

the strange emo-ish Jamaica guy in that pot wash room was treating me so nice today, so unusual of him hahhaa. probably because i sort of giving him 'warning' before the start of work, because i told him:

" U must teach me everything that i nid to know, i don wanna make any mistake, i don wanna be scolded by u"
then obviously i ended my sentence with LOL. anyway, what i wanna say is eventhou he is really fierce sometimes and he is really annoying all the time, BUT he can be a nice person when he wants to be, he should be told that people loves him this way, yea anyone wanna volunteer? hahah dare u!

hmmmm my ALAIN DELON shoes were sacrified for this special night, she was tough all the time and made her very best to serve me until the last day of the catering service, how lovely she was. at the very end, she was submerged by water due to a small leakage underneath, making my feet swimming all night long...thanks my ALAN DELON you have done a great job! (I will remember you until i get my new formal heels! heheheh)

and yea i think everyone in the kitchen is so nice today, its really good when seeing everyone working in harmony and joking and teasing each other, just like a gang of crazy people. im going miss them seriously >.<

and then here i have my D.I.Y SUSHI recipe to share with you guys! i made it 2 weeks ago for a one week supply of my lunch meal! hahaha easy peasy and save alot of time cooking in the afternoon when i usually don feel like moving alot LOL.

u need eggs rice seaweed carrots mushrooms cucumbers tunas prawns mayonaise

then, cut them into appropriate long shapes and cook de ingredients accordingly, this time i made four main kinds which are tuna, egg, prawn and mushroom. while carrots, cucumbers and spring onions are vege for all the sushi.

rice is cooked and preferably mixed with white vinegar, its time to wrap it up now!

once wrapping is one, cut them into the length that you like ( i suggest you to get a sharp knife you will know why when you see the next step)

well...you can see that the shape is abit cacated all thanks to the blunt knife and i had to press my little weak sushi bar and taking some hard time to even cutting off the thin seaweed layer. so yea, important advice

but anyway, the SUSHI tasted fabulous and i hope in the future, i will have the mood and time to do it again with an improved version or new recepi, and also using a new sharp knife heheheheh

okiela thats all for now, will post up after the exam which will be on the 18/22/26/28 of June. very soonnnnnnnnnn

Good Luck to myself!

Biggest Congratulation to 刘玉枝医疗美容诊所

2009-04-26T17:45:00.004+08:00

my beautiful mummy now upgraded to become a doctor!

Today is my dearest mummy's big day, is the opening of her own chinese traditional medicines clinic in our home town - pantai remis!!! I'm so proud of her for her achievement in the medical field. Her spirits and interest towards being a sinsei and her never-stop-learning attitude is something that I must learn from her. She is indeed a role model for everyone in the family especially me and my sister because she has been not only a great mother but also in terms of managing her career and fullfilling her wish to be a doctor to help patients to stay away from illnesses and diseases and most importantly to educate them the prevention of getting sick as you know, prophylactic is always better than treatment.

The clicic was named after her name because her name is actually very special when pronounced in either mandarin or hokkien, its rhythm literally means 'save one stick for me' hahahahaha and then we had this joke that mummy is saving one stick of needle to accupunctual them. okok...maybe you dont find it funny >.<

And yesterday was my happiest day in the UK! A good news early in the morning from my dad just made the best start of my day and I seriously could not believe what I saw in the email. All I hav to say is thank God and I think I'm the most blessed kid in the world!!!!!!!!!!!!

Finally, I would like to thanks my family for being such a great support in everything I want to do, eventhou we're far apart but I can feel all of them in my heart at anytime and everywhere. Love you guys the most!

A family dinner is the best thing I'm craving for right now!!!

Skipped February's post, its the end of March now!

2009-03-22T01:13:00.008+08:00

All rite, first of all lets make a summary of de missing post with pictures.

de nite of red wine n heart to heart talk

Its been a bad weather day, overcome all obstacles to visit Gimms lol u can ignore me

Malaysian nite with formal and traditional dress

me n christ visiting gimms in brinsley

my first 鸡腿饭 in uni's recharge cafe! yummy

Hello guys, the title could tell how busy I was since February. I have alot of reasonable excuses not to update here, one of it being no body really care about it, hahaha and the other reason being I was really having no time even watching drama shows (its been ages since my last HONGKONG's drama aka gems of life T_T), not even to mention BLOGGING! Now that I'm writing here its because its the start of Easter Holiday now, and amazingly it lasts for four weeks long woohoooo~~~ such a longing holiday ever since the last one in December but that was not considered as a holiday as it was a break to study, not break from study -______-

Now, I have all the time in the world to waste MAUAHAHHA. Thinking in mind that this four weeks break is going to past very fast, it makes me even more precious my spare time now, trying to make use of every single seconds to do something which I have missed out since February where my life has been fulled of work, work and more work. So...wondering what kinda of work that I'm talking about? hehehhee...its CASUAL WORK! The truth is, I was working part time in the University Catered Hall at night for almost four weeks, 6 days in a week and 2.5 hours a day. For me, it was not actually a long hour as during that period of time when I've started working, I could not feel that the time was flying so fast, would not even have time to pause and relax awhile, its actually busy like hell when the people started coming into the hall for their dinner. Wondering what kinda tasks that I engaged to? OKAY..its like this, if you happened to stay in catered hall before, then you know there is this person who scoopes and serves the foods to the students when they are Q-ing up for their foods, I was playing this role exactly! Everyday, my most frequently used phrases would be 'NEXT PLEASE!''YES PLEASE!''THANK YOU!''would you like rice?''This is vegetarian!'lol, I'm so freaking used to saying all these phrases now, so sick of saying them too. To be honest, I like my job very much, I hope to continue working if possible after the break but it seems that exam will just be around the corner which makes life so tense and less likely to have time for working. Anyway, I will still wish to stay back with this job in the future if I have the opportunity to. What I really want to say is (quoted from LEEHOM lol), working in the UK is damn great fun and its probably the best experience that an international student should gain because you get to mix with people while expanding your network at the same time improving your english communication skills! well...most importantly, earning POUNDS is nevertheless the most rewarding bits of coming to UK!

So yea, piece of advice here for all Malaysian Friends out there in the UK, if you find your life too dull or boring, just instill some colours into it by working or volunteering in some interesting events, you will definitely feel and see the difference if you try it out.

One more thing to share here, its actually nothing to be proud of but just something that I thought it would never happen in my life, not even 0.00000001% would it have any connection to me! BUT unfortunately, it has just happened on me! Its another story to serve as another piece of advice to the young ladies out there no matter you are in the UK or Malaysia or anywhere in the world, LOL. erm...suddenly don't feel like telling it here...erm...I think I will save it until I'm ready to tell, I'm not mentally ready yet because this matter has left a big impact on my life, on the way I perceive Friendship, it greatly influences the way I mix with male's friend after the event. This matter has also made me to think more maturely about relationship, not my own's relationship but friend's relationship and how it could influence your friendship one day if something is not done in a mature way, for an innocent and less-experienced adult like me (I know I should be behaving like an adult but as I've said, I'm not psychologically nor physically ready yet, because I'm still dressing like a teenager, because I'm still wearing jeans instead of trouser, because I'm still saying childish words like I always used to) its actually quite a good lecture for me yet also an interesting chapter in my life as at least I have this experience that I can share to my grandchildren next time in the far future. hahaha if you are curious enough and would like to hear the story, let me know and I would tell you everything, I would turn my sadness and anger into energy to tell so that I'm able to finish the story...only when she has apologised to me. I'm still waiting for the day, still giving her the last chance from my kindest heart. No one can forgive such a silly act from your friend...but I can...just an apologise, lets end the troublesome conflict, will you?

sorry guys, I will save the story for my next post maybe, its going to be very dramatic and I'm sure you'll be surprised by this real-life story, telling from the mouth of the real-life victim. Here, the victim has to stop writing now and re-heat her dinner as she has got plenty of foods packed from the catered hall! Don worry too much as the victim has partially let go and brought herself out of this disasterious event and today she has bought a bunch of chrysanthemum flowers to cheer her day, and to welcome the secret visit of springs! Furthermore, she has bought a coat and a jacket for spring's use, she just cant reject the temptation of sunshine and blossom, she is of course mentally ready to indulge herself in the SPRINGS, which is a great season bringing new life to everything!

New Year New Sem New Look New Me

2009-01-31T04:17:00.001+08:00

Hello everybody Gong Xi Gong Xi! Its the 6th day of Chinese New Year, sincerely wish all of you a properous, healthy and wonderful year of the OX and be as strong as an OX in the years to come! This cny is really special to me, as you know I'm away from my home sweet home, not reunion with my family for the first time, it wasnt actually as bad as I expected, somehow I felt quite satisfied and warm-in-the-heart with the reunion steamboat held in my little room (imagine having to occupy 17 guests simultaneously), the reunion night has brought friends together and seemed everyone has had fun having to eat the long-miss-super-delicious tomyam soup (of course not forgetting the yummy chicken soup!) and the interesting gift-exchange games have brought the night to its climax, are you happy with what you've gotten in the end? I hope you do hehehe

And yea, just when we're still partially recovering from the exhaustion of having a dreaded one month's study break and two weeks of examination, the new semester has started right after that with NO BREAK IN BETWEEN! cny in the uk has become a negligible celebration, its so pathetic...the world of ANGMO but this land is actually resident by quite a number of chinese, yea dont believe? start counting the number of chinese that you'll bump into when you walk on any street, its a high frequency you'll be shocked with that. but too bad you cant find china town in Nottingham >_<. Oh yea went to try Terracotta on Tues, I have to say that the food is so so only, its more like a ready made dishes rather than freshly made, I have that feeling that they used uncle ben's sauce (quoted from NZ) to cook the dishes, LOL. I think this would be my first and last time for the restaurant. OKAY lets turn the sadness of not reunion-ing with family into energy, just want to say that no matter what the God is trying to test me, no matter what's happening next, I'm well ready to face any challenges, PUT THE OX COME 放牛过来 please!

What's new in this semester is that, we have a professional skills module which require us to wear formal outfit during the dispensing session, where we are suited as if we are a real pharmacist and get trained to be a competent pharmacist with the knowledge of laws and ethics that we're supposed to know in the near future while you're consulting the patients. I personally like this part of the course very much as I love memorising the medicines, their indications, side effects, drug-drug interactions and etc. I feel kind excited when I get to recall things about the drugs, I hope this is a normal reaction that you should spot from a pharmacy student, ahha. That's right, I'm at least having one new look in this brand new semester, not to mention the same routine jackets and coats that have been filled up most of my autumn and summer's fashion style, I now proudly announce that I'm opening up my arms to give a welcome hug to spring! My excitement towards this module has led me into spending my precious pounds in stocking up some new clothes, how amazing this is! Cant believe that I'm willing to spend on formal wear just because of this module! guess what, I've bought something that I really like from H&M and I think they are going to be practically useful in the future when I'm a pharmacist, my beloved new top and new serious-looking skirt! They are now accommodating in a special V.I.P space in my little wardrobe awaiting me to unveil their beautifulness, lol please bear with me for the broken language, I'm stil learning! Do give me some more time please, hmm...just realised that it has only been 3 years of time where I've been exposing myself in the english-speaking-environment. Well, I take alot of people around me as my learning model, they are all good english-speakers! especially PekSan who is so kind enough to correct my sentence each time I made any mistake, thank you my dear friend!

Speaking about Friend, I find that this semester seems to have started with some friendship issues which is sad to know that. I know sometimes its hard to juggle between yourself and your friends, most of the individual put themself more important than anyone else, this is how an ordinary human being should behave. But, when you see individual around you who can actually put friends on priority, you'll think that is it your problem that you've not done better in being a good friend? is it wrong if they care about you more than you care for them? is it not right that they've been treating you so nicely and you didnt do the same in return? This remains as a question in my heart because I don't know how people feel about me when I'm socialising with them, I don't know how important am I in their list when I actually take them as my close friends, I don't know how to measure the quantity and quality of friendship, I don't know how much should I give so that they think that i precious our friendship very much, I just don't know how...to express myself so that they can understand my feelings. I think one thing is right about friendship is that, eventhou two friends who don't always keep in touch with each other, but if they happened to meet up one day, there will stil be endless of stories to share with each other. I appreciate every single friendship that I've built up all these years (to be honest, the experience of transfering schools for three times in my lifetime have greatly influenced the way i perceive FRIENDSHIP, unintentionally it has widen my social network eventhou I was at first a quiet little young daughter of the bakery family and it transformed me to whom you think I am now) and I swear to myself that I'll try my very best to work it out every friendship and make them even better than before...do you have faith in me? Would you tell me how you think about me?

The begin of this semester, also meaning that we have to make decision on the accommodation next academic year, this is kinda troublesome when I come to think about it. Its not a hard decision actually, its just a matter of how you are making it so that it ends up with a happy ending with regards to the feeling of each parties. Probably you will say I'm worrying too much, you should just go with what you want, hmm...if its that easy, there wont be war in this world, LOL. Let me put it this way, if you really want something but you can only get it with the aid from your friend, isnt this abit selfish because you are only considering your own's benefits regardless of your friend's thought. What if your friend is kind enough to help you but actually in her heart she doesnt really like it this way, this would be unfair for her right?! For my friend's sake, I am willing to make a decision which everyone is happy with it, a decision where i stick to my usual independent me, be the usual lonesome but fortunate me, be the siusien that she's always been before she entered university which has totally changed her into another person...YES she will know how to make the decision the lastest by next week!

Happy Chinese New Year to everyone I love!
Happy New Semester my dear friends!
Spring is just around the corner so let us cherish the time we have in the UK!

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Everything in 2008

2008-12-31T00:08:00.000+08:00

ohkay i set a target to myself that i must write at least a post every month, im getting dragged on time managing as nowadays even there's no need to attend classes during the study break but the whole big stacks of notes and books have just filled up the so called "study break", isnt it should be a break from study, hmmm...why am i doing so much of studies during this break, jelaka~~~ i realised that at this time in Malaysia, i should be hanging out with friends at some new year's eve countdown event, its so pathetic that I'm hanging out with my headache-causing medicinal chemistry's past year papers now...i dont want la! well...think it the other way, its just a tough period that you cant avoid and you must try your very best to go through this time as the more effort you've instillled, the more in return you'll be rewarded in the future. As Likzai has always said :"no pain no gain" yea i strongly agree with you but i just dont have the urge to follow this principle now, am i getting lazier? yes i think i do...any cure? NO, you yourself is the only one that can save yourself, its a matter of whether you want to do it or not, rite? here i would like to thank my roommate for being a good motivator to me as whenever i see her rajin-ness, i feel ashamed of myself and started drilling my big head into de pool of notes, oh yeah motivation is so important at this period of time.

Come on...crap crap crap here, i think i'm more willing to spend time on blogging than studying now, more willing to do house work than studying, more eagly to work than study now! i know you will say i should not be thinking this way as i stil have 2 more years (eh nono, jus one and a half years) to strive through, you've plenty of time to work after that...hmmm...yea maybe i just feel like doing something else other than studying, anything else will do as long as it doesnt involve handouts books pens and papers...im so sick of those stuffs! they've been dreaded my life for 2 weeks plus and i've to face them for another 2 weeks (oh well,one week plus...)just doesnt make any difference as i hate them alot now!!! i said NOW...i know i'll have to force myself to fall in love with them again the next moment i finish posting this bloggy.

Lets back to the point of this post, im going to leave my personal comments on how i see every special things happened in 2008. Firstly, i've to say coming to the UK is the biggest event happened this year, as I've always thought that studying overseas is a dream to me and now that I've achieved it, all thanks to my family who kept on supporting me in whatever way they can, either mentally or financially, they've been such a great family and without them, I'm not at where I'm now. All i want to do now is to make my every effort to reward them back, i wanna make some proud achievements in my future pharamcist career and make everyone's life better! (LOL why do i sound so great) i just simply wanna show how much i love my family ( i know i'm not good in showing my feeling), and i promise i will make you guys proud and be sure that for what you're instilling on me now, it worths for a better future, I promise you!

This was taken on the last CNY, it's what deep in my heart that i've never said to my family, i'm sorry for not able to re-union in the coming CNY, anyway please keep my angpaos safe, hahah

For those who have heard of story about QQ, i'm so sad to tell you that the battle between us and the drug addict has over and QQ has been jailed by him using every single rude action that he could think of to pull us and QQ apart, QQ will not be able to re-union with us anymore, will he? T_T well, i feel like crying whenever i think of QQ, revising his pictures each time i miss him, it further adds on my craving for him, i miss him very badly actually, i think i'll need a long period of time to settle down the feeling of loosing QQ, QQ QQ QQ i want you back!!!

ehem *clear throat and reabsorption of tears* okay back to the topic, it'll be kinda stressful if you make studying in the UK sounds like a mission ( i admit i'm partially on a mission now, to get a professional degree), ahhaha actually there are many other things that we've or will be experienced during the period of pursueing studies in the UK, not only those thing that you can learn in the University but also other interesting stuffs out of the text book. Travelling is a good example to make your study life more exciting, so far I've been to Birmingham, Bath, Stonehenge, and IRELAND!!! hmm not as many as other friends who have been joining travel society's trip every time when there were trips organised, not as many as YUN who has almost finished exploring Europe within 2 and half years, but I feel that my life has been pretty enriched with tours, i guess travelling to 4 places in 5 months is not the normal amount of trip that i would usually do back in Malaysia. Huh, actually not bad huh! I swear to mayself that i would travel more often whenever i'm able to, in terms of finance, i dont feel like using family's hard-earn money to spend it on something which i'm the only one who enjoy it but not with them together, thus i would want to work (in fact, i'm very thrist of finding a part time job) to earn extra pounds to support many other things that i want to do. Everyone out there, job for me?

LOL...i dont know what to say now as i think my nerves and neurons are stored with those nutrition, advanced drug delivery and medicinal chemistry's stuffs (honestly, i've not started molecular pharmacology yet!), my brain is running low of RAM to think of something. Oh yea suddenly feel like thanking my dearest boss/friend in co-op selston, Gimms for sending me the company's xmas card, haha appreciated alot that you still remember me at this greeting season (at this busy moment in the pharmacy as people thought the chemist will be closed for 6 months for xmas, its so laughable!), you said there might be snowing during xmas day but there wasnt! abit sad and disappointed but what to do, we cant predict the weather just like we cant predict exam's questions (LOL i guess im having exam-phobia now)

Next i want to thank that person who has been such a great someone-to-talk-to all these years, eventhough there is nothing we can do now but lets wait til the day we meet, we've proved that distance is not a barrier, stay strong and grow stronger k?

collection of memories for all that we've been through...hope you'll like it when you see it ^.^

and this new song from Leehom's latest album - Everything, specially dedicated to that special one in my heart on this special day, the begin of every great things...

Everything

故事里的起承转合有一些忘记
做了多少错误的选择
原来波折才暗示着该走的方向
指引你我来到这一刻
就算别人都说我们没什么出息
不可能会这样轻易放弃
Cause You're My Everything
就一个原因让我勇敢面对这个世界
想给你Everything
不管用多少个明天永远从此刻开始算起
你的爱是我的Everything

辽阔天际巧合相遇有多少机率
多少烟火坠落无痕迹
因为幸福没有捷径难免要绕道
不被看好越是要走到
就算别人都说我们没什么出息
不可能会这样轻易放弃
你就是Everything
就这个原因让我勇敢面对这个世界
想给你Everything
只要你说一声愿意所有的未来才有意义
你的爱是我的Everything

Cause You're My Everything
就这个原因让我勇敢面对这个世界
想给你Everything
不管用多少个明天永远从此刻开始算起
你就是Everything
就如这个原因我会永远记住这种感觉
想给你Everything
只要你说一声愿意所有的未来才有意义
你的爱是我的Everything

For everything great things happened in 2008, thanks to my beloved mum, dad, hui, len, ching, next come likzai (who turns into zainan recently) and then those close friends, love you guys forever! you've made my 2008 so wonderfully unforgettable ^.^

死亡游戏

2008-11-20T04:46:00.002+08:00

In memory of my dear auntie who was called back by her Lord to the heavenly heaven on the 11th of November 2008, the article was written by an author whom has a close relationship with her and its dedicated to everyone for the memorance of her being the strongest person to fight with the illness and the ending of her suffers. She is now blessing everyone up there...turning into one of the stars, shining and blinking on us in the dark as if she is smiling to us and says: "I'm fine here!"

This article reminds me of how important HEALTH is to an individual, please love your body!

死亡游戏

~于亲人郑淑真回魂日~

许心伦手笔
二零零八年十一月十六日

阿珍日记 2008年 2月

新年期间，我回老家-双礼佛过年。大家看到我时，都异口同声的说：你瘦了！那真好呀！我减肥成功了！我实在高兴。我终于可以瘦身，可以穿漂亮的衣服。其实，我并没有特意减肥。既然可以没来由的瘦下来，那真是最好不过。因为瘦了，这个新年，我还特地买了两套紧身的新衣服。我还把它穿起来展示给丽环嫂嫂看，好招摇一番，因为她现在还是胖胖的，总是瘦不下来。

阿珍日记 2008年 4月

奇怪？我不是瘦了吗？为何我的裤头却越来越紧了呢？我的肚腩又再现形了。没理由。我的肚子是不是出了问题？可是，我从来不曾感觉胃涨风或肚子痛。我往涨得圆鼓鼓的肚子轻轻一按。咦？它是硬的！它像是一粒已打满风的篮球。
我被吓了一跳。它里面会是什么东西？难道它也像我妈从前肚子里的那一种<东西>吗？那是一粒生长在子宫内的<肉瘤>。妈妈因害怕开刀还带着那粒大瘤生活了好几年。后来开了刀，割了瘤，妈妈依然健健康康的活到今天。我想，不会有事的。我去给医生看看就是了。方哥陪我去医院做了超音波扫描检验( Ultra-Sound ) 及X-光照射图。检验显示我右边的卵巢颈旁长了一粒像青椰子般大的<肿瘤>！医生马上建议我验血做癌细胞指数测试(Cancer Cell Marker Test)及做全身核磁共振摄影( CT-Scan) 。结果显示：我的癌细胞指数偏高。我的全身核磁共振图显现我的肝脏也有细微的小白点。医生说那是属于一种轻微的损伤，较后再处理不迟。庆幸的是，身上其他器官完好无损。虽然我的癌细胞指数偏高，但是医生还不能向我说明那就是来自卵巢瘤里的病变。他们必须对那粒肉瘤进行病理化验才能具体证实。在这个期间，我才知道事态严重。我与方哥马上拜访了城里一个有名的中医。中医说，我的肿瘤太大了，直径达11公分，必须先割除后才能用中药调理。方哥为我接洽了住院开刀的时间与手续。由于清明节快到了，我必须先回乡拜祭父亲与哥哥，就把开刀的日期排在清明之后。清明前的晚上，我与方哥从吉隆坡坐了6小时的车回老家。第二天一早就赶往扫墓。我在墓地上锄了1小时的草，把四周打扫干净。祭拜完毕回到家，我竟然累得席地而睡，非常反常。我平日身体无痒无痛，工作日以继夜从不言累。我才49岁，身体健壮，现在只锄锄草，竟然会累成这样。这会不会是肚内的<肿瘤>在作怪？

阿珍日记 2008年 5月 3日

明天，我就要进院割除肿瘤了。我很乐观，因为我的妈妈也做过这样的手术。她现在人好好的，还吃得胖胖的。我会住院4天。我的姐姐会来照顾我。今天的晚餐，我亲自下厨。虽然明天就要开刀了，但是我感觉身体无碍，不痛也不痒，我自然以对，没有害怕的感觉。

阿珍日记 2008年 5月 4日

一早来到医院，护士马上安排我验血、宽衣、消毒局部、打麻醉剂。时为午间2点。当一剂麻醉药从我腰间的脊椎骨打入时，真是叫我痛得呼天抢地。我拼出吃奶力紧抓住面前的铁床栏杆，试图不叫出声音。渐渐地，我失去了知觉。醒来时，已是下午6点。我下体的肿瘤与子宫已被切除了，留下一条蜈蚣的足迹。一切还好。四天后，我就可以出院了。

阿珍日记 2008年 5月 8日

经过四天的疗养后，我的体力恢复了，可以缓慢的走动，只是，动过手术的切口还在隐隐作痛，人也瘦了一大圈。我穿上美丽的衣服，准备出院。不过，出院之前，必须等待接受医生的诊视。保罗医生面容带笑，像完成了一个重大的工程似的，轻松的对我说道：肿瘤成功的切割出来了。从大腿抽取出来化验的淋巴结证实没有癌细胞。目前你的身体没有发现有恶细胞的残余。不过，在开刀过程中，肿瘤的外皮稍微破裂，为了以防万一，你必须做3次低剂量的化疗。化疗？我吓了一跳。不会掉头发的。医生补充说。疗剂一支多少钱？姐姐问。不要问了。我不做化疗。我坚决的回应。不知为什么，我一听到<化疗>，竟然莫名其妙的害怕起来。化疗的副作用太可怕了，那会掉头发的。我身上没有癌细胞。我不是得到癌症！医生看着我，愣了愣，接着说：那就等3个月后验血吧。姐姐马上接口道：3个月太长了吧，万一一个月后就有癌细胞了呢？3个月之内是验不到癌细胞的踪影的。医生说。我太高兴了。我不必做化疗。我一定没事。我为自己打包单。医生说我现在的淋巴结没有癌细胞，我相信以后也没有。

+医院病理部化验报告+ 2008年 5月8日

经过开刀割除<卵巢肿瘤>后化验的结果，名为阿珍的病人已证实是得到<第一期>的<卵巢癌>。病人肚内的肿瘤体积为11 X 8 X 6公分，大部分的外层组织为软性的纤维体，但是中间却见一小部分的硬实体。这小部分的硬体就是癌细胞组织。它原本是<良性>的，但在发现时已开始长大并转变为<恶性>。

*癌症医学知识*

癌症既是<恶性肿瘤>，为一种疾病。它是由控制细胞生长增殖机制的失常而引起。癌细胞除了生长失控外，还会局部侵入周遭正常组织，甚至经由体内<循环系统>或<淋巴系统>转移到身体其他部分。癌细胞持续生长而不受外在讯息调控，可能是原本失活的原癌基因被激活，将细胞导入到癌变状态，但主要还是因为一些与控制细胞分裂有关的<蛋白质>出现异常。导致这种局面既可能是该<蛋白质>编码的<去氧核糖核酸>因<突变>而出现了<损伤>。正常组织转变成<肿瘤>需经一连串的过程。从最初期的细胞增生，多半可籍由身体本身的<防疫机制>加以清除或保持稳定。当它成为一团肿块的<良性肿瘤>时，身体已无法自立将其去除，而只能选择共存。但是也并非所有<良性肿瘤>都会转变成<恶性肿瘤>。癌症是<基因>引起的疾病。当调控细胞生长的基因发生<突变>或<损坏>时，细胞便失去控制，并持续的生长与分裂而产生肿瘤。大部分人体内的细胞是不会持续分裂生长的。

阿珍日记 2008年 6月

姐姐已告诉我是得了第一期的癌症，但肿瘤已经割除了。开刀后的验血报告也显示我的体内没有癌细胞。我很放心。既然没有癌细胞，我也没有必要做化疗。之前医生要我做化疗，我一口拒绝了。我对自己有信心。我可以吃中药保健与控制。方哥带我去看了中医。中药真难喝。我喝了几次就放弃了。

阿珍日记 2008年 7月

我不能等到3个月后才验血。我急于知道我的身体状况。我在开刀两个月后去医院验血。谢天谢地。我的血液癌症指数正常，没有升高。

阿珍日记 2008年 8月 11日

割除肿瘤后的第3个月内，我感觉我的两条腿经常酸痛无力并有肿胀现象。我的排泄系统也出了问题，必须借助泻药与润肠剂。间中，我往返医院几次，向医生请教。医生依情况配药给我。3个月后，我照医生的吩咐回医院验血及做CT-SCAN。这次才是最关键的检验。

+核磁共振摄影报告+ 2008年 8月 11日

报告显示：病人直肠处出现了一粒体积6 X 5 X 6公分的肿瘤。它导致排便肠道变窄。
通便肠道有轻微损伤。
肝脏内被发现有许多体积大小不等的损伤点。
左肺部有小节瘤。

结论：骨盘恶性癌毒复发。癌细胞已扩散至肝脏与肺部。

方哥日记 2008年 8月11日

天啊！为何是这样？这个噩耗来得太出乎人意料之外了！恶性肿瘤竟然可以在一个月之内着床？而且成长的速度惊人！这3个月来，阿珍的伤口快复原了，但元气却恢复的很慢。她的胃口与食欲逐渐减退，身体也渐渐地消瘦。难道说这些天来，隐藏着的癌细胞已经在慢慢的腐蚀着她的生理机能？难道说那些还未现形的癌细胞已在忙着吸取她身上所有的养料？我暂时不能告诉她这个噩耗，以免让她丧失求生的斗志。医生安排6次<化疗>( Chemotherapy )，每3个星期一次。

方哥日记 2008年 9月 16日

2次化疗期间，阿珍承受了许多痛苦的后果。她容易发烧、呕吐，头发也开始掉落。然而，直肠内的肿瘤并没有明显的缩小。经医生建议，决定采用电疗(radiotherapy ) 以放射线治疗方式直接杀灭直肠内的肿瘤。医生安排10次电疗。每天一次。

方哥日记 2008年 9月 24日

做完10次电疗后，医生建议为阿珍再做一次核磁共振摄影(CT-SCAN)，以检验体内的癌细胞状况。医生发现阿珍直肠内的肿瘤收缩了，但是，癌细胞已严重的扩散至肝脏。肝脏内的肿瘤开始在迅速生长。医生慎重的对我说：癌细胞已经转移，进入癌症第四期，如果没有医治，病人的寿命只剩下3个月。医生也对我说：虽然癌症已到末期，存活的巴仙率很低，但病人的求生意志力与积极的生活态度很重要。它能协助延长生命。医生安排18次的化疗，每星期一次。这次的化疗，主要是针对肝脏的癌细胞，也是要杀灭在体内扩散的其他癌细胞。

方哥日记 2008年 10月15日

在这段非常与紧急时期，为了要让阿珍配合其他治疗，我不得不向阿珍透露她真正的病情。阿珍很平静的接受这最坏的消息，没有半点激动的情绪。我想她早已有心里准备。阿珍知道自己的病情后，终于接受寻求额外的民间治疗。我带她寻访了几个中医与癌症痊愈病人，开始吃中药；也喝抗癌的青草汁如-木瓜叶、红毛榴连叶。然而，很不幸的，两次的化疗过后，阿珍的肝脏并没有好转的迹象，反而恶化。她的肝脏开始肿胀与疼痛。医生不得不配给减痛剂-麻啡 (MOFFEINE) 以减少病人的痛苦。此时，阿珍停止做化疗，既是说，这阶段的治疗已接近尾声。医生说病人已病入膏肓，再也没有痊愈的机会了，有的，也只是延长生命的钟点吧了。医生要我为阿珍签下<医疗切割书>。这是要证明医院与医生已经尽了最大的努力与人事。

方哥日记 2008年 11月 7日

阿珍的病情越来越危急了，她已进院好几天。据医生说，她的生命的终点就在这几天内。很凑巧的是，青青的婚礼就在明天的槟威<光大楼>举行。当时，阿珍的老朋友-阿连，她在吉隆波工作的女儿获悉阿珍病重后，就天天来探望。阿珍的妈妈也叫我必须出席婚礼。我就安排医生与护士特别照顾阿珍。不过，我必须在两天内赶回来。我将在明天临晨4点开车上槟城出席阿青的婚礼。

方哥日记 2008年 11月 8日

医生说，阿珍可能过不了今天或明天。今天顺利的出席了婚礼。我将在明天临晨4点开车赶回吉隆坡医院。

阿伦日记 2008年 11月 10日午间2时

今天早上，阿珍开始表现异常。她的脸色渐渐苍白。她的眼神开始呆滞。她说话开始语焉不详。她的意识开始模糊。但她仍依稀记得谁人的模样。阿珍的呼吸像出自一条阻塞的气管，发出很大的音响。她呼吸的节奏开始加快，像上气不接下气的样子。几个星期不见，阿珍的脸盘与体型突然变了一个模样。以往骨瘦如柴，皮包骨的她忽然膨胀似的胖了起来。她的肚子发涨的犹如九月初九九皇爷摊口卖的大面龟，高高的拱了上来。原来，那是肝脏肿胀与下垂所导致，再加上内积水的关系，阿珍的四肢也连带发涨坚硬。我发现阿珍的口腔带血，只见血水不断涌现。不知癌细胞是不是已游移到了阿珍的头部与全身，她不断的抓头皮与摆动四肢，像一只热锅上的蚂蚁。阿珍的妈妈在一旁老泪纵横，她一直嚷着要乘阿珍还有呼吸时送她回双礼佛老家，以免迟了进门。她询问阿珍的意思，阿珍迷迷糊糊的说：护士叫她留下来医治。阿珍到最后一刻还要在医院做治疗。不过，在她妈妈不断的追问下，她终于做了一个迷糊也含糊的回：Cinchailah。。。。

下午6时，阿珍的兄弟姐妹都到医院来了。
黄昏8时，主治医生来了。
刘医生说：病人的肝脏、肺、肾已经停止操作。血液开始凝结，并在皮肤下堆积成红点。她只剩下几小时的生命了。

此时，躺在病床上的阿珍脸色变得惨白，明显已陷入了昏迷的状态中，而只有心脏，尚在苟延残喘。。。我急忙叫护士为阿珍洗涤、净身，再穿上整齐的衣服，戴上假发。阿珍至始至终，都要为自己维护一个美丽的外表，不让人看到自己的丑态。我希望她能光鲜上路。。。

阿伦日记 2008年 11月 10日入夜9点

阿珍只剩下几小时的生命！生命竟然到了用小时来计算，真是太可怕了。我还一直以为我们有很长的生命可以挥霍。想不到阿珍的生命这么快就来到了尽头。当救伤车的医药人员把已经静止活动的阿珍用绳子绑在救伤推椅上时，我忽然想到了粽子。棕子内的糯米已经没有自由与伸展的空间了。它们只能在被囹圄中发涨与挣扎。救伤车像一只穿着白衣的追魂鬼，一冲出马路就从头上喷出红色的血光，依哦依哦开山劈道，充分的展现了它的追命精神。然而，尽管追魂车开得有如喷射机，那已经没有阿珍的事了。她现在最后的一项工作就是不停的呼吸，不停的呼吸。只要她能保持呼吸到家，她就是胜利了。10点38分。救伤车抵达霹雳毛边。我发现阿珍开始拉长她的呼吸时间。我感觉到她的心脏的操作开始缓慢。我发现她的呼吸必须用劲，以至舌头也跟着一呼一吸。我发现她紧闭的双眼忽然在此刻微微半张，但是，她的眼珠已经凝固在焦点之外。我渴望她能回光返照，对我说些什么。我只能不停的对她说：阿珍，快到家了，快到家了，你妈妈在门口等着你了。你不要再睡了，不要再睡了。。。医药人员的急救功亏一篑。多少氧气也唤不回即将停止的心脏。
回家的路布满了石子，崎岖难行。我被震得晕头转向，频频作呕，但是，在我身边沉睡的阿珍动也不动，她的魂魄头也不回的离开了她的躯体；离开了救伤车，随风飘走了。从此，她脱离了人生的苦海。苦海无边啊。从此，她是一只飘在云边的闲云野鹤，不必再为觅食而生存；不必再为病痛遍体鳞伤；不必再为名利财气追波逐浪。阿珍小妹，你的离去并不是没有价值的。你让我在你身上得到了许多启示。你让我看到了许多人在人性上的许多问题。

是的。每一个人，到每一个阶段，一定要拥有那个阶段的智慧与对事物的分析能力与警戒心。每一个人要为自己的成长负责。每一个人要对每一件事心有成竹，以免一失足成千古恨。每一个人都要懂得如何应对生活中的每一个问题。这种智慧是靠学习、上进、自强、阅读、储存资讯而来的。阿珍，你是失足于太过大意与没有警戒心。你的资讯储备量也太少了。

是的。每个人的解码水平都会因所处的环境与学识范畴而有差异。这些差异带来了很多的误解与偏见。然而，误解是可以用交流与沟通来稀释的，而不是我在此扎马，隔岸观火，你死你事，或是造谣生非，使两派人马两败俱伤。许多人都犯了这样的错误。我们也几乎跌入了这样的陷阱里。

从你的身上，我更加的了解到：健康才是最重要的。病从浅中医，一定有活命的机会。生病并不可怕。最怕是错过了医病的时辰。最怕是固执己见，不肯接纳好的建议。而最最可怕的，是以小人之心度君子之腹。本是同根生，大家的血脉相连，你走了，我们的血脉也已断流。然而，不管你走得多远，我们的门口永远为你打开。纵然你的思想与我们南辕北辙，你身上流的血，绝不会因空间而改变颜色。你的早逝，为我们敲了一句警钟。生命诚可贵，亲情价更高啊。

末了，安息吧。
祖母的花园永远为你开放。。。

死神日记 2008年 11月10日

哈哈哈，人类是斗不过我的。
人类自称是万物之灵，但是，却永远玩不过我。<死亡游戏>是我的强项。我只要在她身边飘过，她就会随我而去。
阿珍病人从发病到离去，不过10个月，是太快了些。其实癌症并不是绝症，只要把握时机医治，调适心情，并不能让我有机可乘。如果有注意，癌症通常会显示一些症状，如：
*局部症状：异常肿块、出血。
*恶性转移症状：淋巴结肿大、咳嗽、咳血、肝肿大、骨头疼痛。
*全身性症状：体重减轻、食欲不振、大量出汗、贫血。

如何避免患上癌症？
最基本的功夫是远离<致癌物>如：烟、酒、防腐剂、烧烤煎炸食物、快餐、有气饮品。改变不良的生活习惯。多运动。避免过度肥胖等。

啊呀，我是死神。我不能给你们太多活命的<贴示>，以免阎罗王<罗我条命>，让我死多一次。你们好自为之吧。

至于阿珍魂魄，由于她的手艺了得，我已引领她走向另一段新的旅程。她很好，新年过后，她就会在我的老板-阎罗王开的cake house上班，你们放心。。。。
拜拜。。。。

Meal deals

2008-10-18T04:39:00.007+08:00

*yawn* I really hardly find anything to talk about recently, there's been nothing special happened in my life, uni has jus started...eh nonono, its going into the 5th weeks!!! OMG >_< time flies in a blink of an eye! and yea, it was like a blow of autumn's wind, seems that there were alot of events going on and life's been filled with lectures and lectures and more lectures...but I don't feel like I've done much things, nothing was left after the blow of autumn's wind probably because I've been dreaming all these while, I guess I'm getting less interest in studying/ motivational deficiency disorders (I need Strivor to boost up my life!). Actually, all in my mind now is to earn POUNDS and more POUNDS, after I realised how valuable a pound is (and after I've received all my pay from Co-op and Boots, the excitement of earning pounds just simply overwhelmed me!) $_$

Most of my time now has been spent at Biology Building B3, Math & Physics B1, Medical School LT1, LT4, LT3, C50, Pope Building C14, C16, Coates Auditorium A150...oh unbelievable, I'm now managed to type out all the lecture venues without looking at the time table (a typical angmor's reply: Brilliant! Lovely! Excellent!)It was initially seemed to be a long journey to walk to classes everyday early in the morning, but now I've already got use to the 20 mins walking from Broadgate Park to the lecture halls, it's everyday's routine...its dull...its depressing sometimes...with bad weather...with strong wind...with sleepy eyes...without excitement, I'm getting quieter...as of last time, I used to speak whatever I want to say in my mind, I used to give silly comments about any possible things flink through my thought, I used to tell jokes that I would get a good response from the fellow friends...haihz...I don't know what happen to me, I'm changing, in terms of personalities. I feel like I'm not the one that I knew last time...

All right, all right I'm all right, just a little bit of complaint about myself for my lousy performance all these days in the uni. PEOPLE, please allow me some time to incorporate myself properly into this new environment.

Aww...I think I'm abit out of the topic now, let's get back to the point! Oh yea, just want to show everyone some pictures of the moments that I've always been craving for, they can possibly be ranked as the best moments of everyday's life, I'm always mentally and physically excited when these moments have come...and there are...

my 1st own cooked dinner in BGP! Steamed salmon and Blunched broccoli

Another amazing dinner time with Curry Chickens and Spain Sprouts + mushrooms!

OH My goodness! Bak Kut Teh, my next bowl of BKT will be in December when my parcel comes in...such a long time to wait

Aww...this is absolutely awesome! I couldn't believe that I made Tu Kah Choh!

Look at this, its my lunch pack! don't be silly, this portion is abnormal! I'm getting better in my appetite >_<

A day of western meals, Jacket potatoes, Black Pepper Pork Steaks, Baked Beans, Coleslaw, Scrambled Eggs.

again, chinese cook and the recipe of the day is Ginger Onion Pork!

The ABC soup made me miss mum's soup so badly because it tasted just like mum's cooking

Isn't this set of meal looks great, 1 fish 1 meat 1 vege, so healthy and pretty!

AHAHAHA, this is definitely not made by me. If you've ever stayed in the catered hall during welcome week probably you'll know where is this from. I'm kinda miss the foods served by the hall, eventhou it was abit lack of variety in their menus but it's quite delicious...probably I wont be having the same thought if I'm eating it for long term...hehehe

Oh yeah, would like to take this opportunity to thank my roomate Dee Sin Tan for making every dinner a success, ahaha! yea, we've been well trained back in sunway semenyih, cooking is just easy peasy for us right ^_^

Also, thanks for being my roommate, you are the best roommie that I've ever had! (erm...I've never shared room with anyone before, bluek) So yea, let's keep it up our chef's spirit and come out with more and more high standards meals in the future!

Awesome Ireland!

2008-09-28T23:40:00.016+08:00

Sorry I've been away from my blog for such a long time, I'm cutting down my blogging frequency from at least two a month to just one a month, as you know, uni has just started and I don't think I'll be having much free time on this anymore...the nightmare is starting soon...GOD BLESS ME

okay, as I've promised. I'll be talking about my trip to Ireland in this post. It was a really great time spending with my best friend -XinYun who has been such a wonderful tour guide thoughout the trip, she brought us around Ireland, not only Dublin but also Northern and South Ireland! Eventhou its just a one week trip but we have made used of every little moment to look for fun, haha...thanks XinYun for doing the well planning...I hope I can visit you again before you go back to Malaysia, thats very soon...early next year right. It sounds abit hard for me to see you again in Ireland or somewhere in Europe, anyway...we will try, arent we?

The trip can be separated into three parts which are Dublin, Northern Ireland and South Ireland. Dublin is the temporary home of XinYun for 2 and a half years, her college is really close to the city, no no no...I should say its inside the city, just a couple minutes of walk to all the shopping streets and tourist spots. Dublin is a vibrant city, and I bet you don't know about the birth of Guinness Stout is actually from Dublin! yea, thats true...the guinness that you find everywhere in the world is from Dublin!!! and yes...I've got my first taste of Guinness in the Temple Bar which is the oldest bar in Dublin. It was not as nice as expected but at least I've tried Guinness at the place of its origin, hahaha...nothing to be proud of. The traditional Irish cuisine was also the highlight in Dublin., eventhou the Irish Stew and Smoked Salmon is a little bit pricey but I think it worth the money to have a try, its really yummy thou.

Drunk siu after drinking Guinnessssss

Irish stew and Smoked Salmon!!!drooling...
Xin Yun's medical college located in the city centre

Tell you what...Giant Causeway is a place you definitely don't wanna miss if you've ever thought of visiting Ireland. Its listed in the world heritage and its really really as giant as its name...I'm really impressed by the spectacular view...imagine all the stones in hexagonal shaped are all come from the nature, and they are in abundance not one or two!!! Its really unusual...so lots of nice pictures have been taken there and I'm still craving for more nice pictures after coming back to Nottingham because XinYun didnt transfer the complete album to me...gonna wait til the next time we meet which its a date not known >_< style="text-align: center;">Carrick-A-Rede the hanging bridge

Giant Causeway a must go!
Belfast in the Northern Ireland is belonged to the United Kingdom

The last part of the trip we headed to the Cork in the South Ireland, it is a place more or less like a lovely little small town. We kissed the Blarney stones at the Blarney Castle which belieave to bring us the power of "whats that word again"? Its actually to improve your speeching skills...the Ring of Kerry was a trip sitting on the bus most of the time, and looking out of the bus for some scenery, the view wasn't as nice probably because of the bad weather, its cloudy and drizzling during almost the whole journey of the Ring...the most memorable part of the ring's journey was the stay at the BRUE hostel which was really not bad and most importantly its clean and tidy. I strongly recommend backpackers to spend their night there as the rent are reasonably cheap and breakfast are served every morning, there are cereal and bread and jams...which is good enough for a boost of the day. What was even more exciting me was that I've got to watched the first episode of Prison Break in the TV room, so coincident that it was the premier show at that time, the plan to hang out at night for a cup of Irish Coffee was terminated by Michael Scoffield (the name of Wentworth Miller in P.B.) hahaha...the night was fulled of excitement!

somewhere in the middle of Ring of Kerry
WAOOO, we were too excited seeing the Blarney Castle
Drinking the Irish Coffee instilled with whisky...my first and last for sure

Overall, I've only one word to describe for this trip, its EXCITING! Because of this trip, I've learnt alot of Irish culture, things like Shamrock and Leprichaun are the elements that you can find everywhere in the ireland. Shamrock which is a three leave clover believe to bring luck and faith, and Leprichaun which is one of the legendary character in the Irish's tale, its believed that if he would one day appear in front of you and tell you that there's A POT of GOLD under the tree, it is definitely a lie. hahaha....so Leprichaun isn't someone nice....do stay away from him.

That's all for today, I'm getting lazier to blog, how to cure this disease? Can someone prescribe me some medicines? PLZZZZZZZZZ

nice people everywhere

2008-08-16T14:53:00.030+08:00

what im going to share now is about a few nice people that i've met in the UK in just the 1st four weeks since i arrived here. its really grateful to have met them and received their helps and cares in this new environment. They just made me feel warm!

The first person that i wanna talk about is my boss in my pharmacy, OMG...he is the kindest boss that i've ever met. im wondering is it because of us being the same race (he is a BBC) and thats why he takes extra cares of me? but no matter what, its a fact that he is a very good example to be learnt from, his professionality in his pharmacy career, his bussiness-mind as a branch manager and his attitude in doing everything...he is so close to perfect but haha...nobody in this world is perfect! well, i sincerely appreciated that he allows me to go to the pharmacy late and go home earlier just to match my time with the bus schedule (and if you dont know, the co-operative pharmacy in selston is about 1 hour bus ride from the city! its a superly remote place), im really touched of what he has agreed. Because of his special allowance, i've got to work less hours but getting the same paid, what a good deal rite! also because of that, i even get home earlier than Christine who is working at Wollaton which is only about half an hour walk distance from our house in Dunkirk, that kinda makes me proud of the branch that i've gotten eventhou its so far away, haha. and...my boss is a really nice tutor because he is so so knowledgable and smart. I've got this summer placement workbook to be completed and he guides me alot in doing it and always inspiring me in whatever pharmacy-related issues. One thing im not quite get use to is that he always emphasise the importance of Standard Operating Procedures (S.O.P) and that makes me feel really stress while working with him. maybe thats the way he likes to stay with, thats how he has made til the person he is today...*respecting by bowing* other than his professionality in the pharmacy, he is also very good in promoting chinese restaurants and groceries shops in Notts (lol, does this count too) im really appreciated for all the nice places he has recommended and i'll definitely pay a visit when im free, i can probably do it this week since im having a one week break and next week im going to visit XINYUN in IRELAND!!! OMG...cant wait to see her!

the one hour journey to selston, passing by a huge farm land where u can see cows n sheeps

the co-operative pharmacy is just next to the Selston Surgery, doing lots of POM

My dearest colleagues Dawn to my right and Andrea to my left

take a closer look of my badge, see de strange thing? thx Gimms for de special allowance!
My boss aka the branch manager, the one who always follow the rules except the last day, haha
me in my formal working attire, transitting at Nott's city
me in my "cute" working attire says christine

okay, u can check more of my working pictures in facebook. and now im going to talk about the 2nd nice person, nono...probably de 2nd nice gang of people, they come in a group, aha. u must be wondering who am i saying...well, they are the bus drivers! Rainbow 5 and Rainbow 1 are the buses that i took to get to my work place, and because Selston is out of the boundary of the multiple ride access card, i had no choice but to buy FRio which gives me 3 free trips when i buy 10 trips at a time. so the good thing was, i didnt actually get to finish using all my trips in the bus tickets because of all these super duple nice bus drivers who purposely didnt want to punch a whole on my ticket and just let me onboard the bus. They wud either blink their eyes or give me a warm smile to show that they are being kind to me...well, i sincerely and truly appreciated their kindness....i hope i didnt cause any trouble to them with their company after that.

SS pic on de bus, u cant do anyting on de long journey bus except doing stupid thing like this

another ss pic, ss= siusien/shiok sendiri

yea, probably the nice person that im going to talk about now is not the last nice person that i've met but dont you be surprised that there are really lots of nice ppl in the UK! there is this saying in mandarin 出门遇贵人, and now i totally understand its meaning. Just two days ago, me and christine went to Birmingham to visit my neighbour back in Penang, our house are just few units away. They are Susan and Peter whom i seldom met in Penang, one of the reason is that most of the time i was in kl the semenyih kampung and the other reason is that they are staying in Cotsall, Wolverhampton most of the time. Out of our expectation, we have received a super V.I.P treatment from them, we were too surprised with all the care that overwhelmed us for that 2 days, it was a fabulous trip for me! They brought us around Birmingham City (i just found out that Birmingham is the 2nd largest city in the UK), not only that but also a few nice old villages around Birmingham one of which the history is more than 500 years old, with the name of Bridgnorth, and the other village named Lichfield where the spectacular Cathedral is. i must mention here that Peter is definitely a good cook, he made a really yummy wantan mee for everyone and we have a family dinner with his son Josh and Chris. Its been glad to know them and especially the friendliness of them and the feeling of warm as if im back to my home! Besides that, we were being treated with delicious DIMSUM in a pretty elegant chincese restaurant in the chinese town, we even have our 1st fish n chips in the uk for our dinner, it was a really memorable one! wat was even more surprising me is that, Susan gave me lots of her winter clothes and Peter kept giving me his cooking paste and flavouring powder and also some cooking utensils like wok, pressure cooker and rice cooker....OMG, he even wanted to give me his TV but luckily i rejected it. Josh just made a joke that his dad would even give the car to me and the whole house will eventually belong to me, thats really laughable, LOL. well, I'vent finished praising their kindness, they even fetched us back to Notts and visited our university and treated us ice creames which me and christine have been craving it for so long. It was such a wonderful time being with them. I have gained lots of knowledge from them too,things like how to use ebay and do online bussiness...im planning to learn further about it and find a way of earning $$ online! its really tempting me for now when i really need cash $_$ how nice if you can earn money by just sitting infront of the computer, isnt it easy money?!

the selfridges in Birmingham city, one of the newest shopping paradise

the canal which can lead you to London or Manchester by boat! how nice if we sail it one day

the historical english village Bridgnorth as old as 500 years

this house was built in 1580 and stil standing firm, nice pattern of the house created by the wood

the old railway station in Bridgnorth, like those we can only find in de 15th century english movie

cooking fun in Peter's well-equipped kitchen, the birth of the highly recommended wantan mee!

the spectacular Cathedral in Lichfield, looks really gigantic and holiness

the wedding gharry rides the bride and groom to the church for a happy ending love story

the muzium of the Samuel Johnson who was the creator of the English Dictionary, now you know who has caused most students to buy it compulsory.

Peter and Susan's home sweet home, the warm living room with a warm cup of wooloong tea, wat a simple but heavenly leisure.

well, thats all for now. cant finish uploading all of the photos, you can find the rest in facebook, as usual. haha ^_^ i guess my next blog will probably be talking about my trip to Ireland, yea...just another week to go and i'll be there!!! YUN im coming!!!

jus luv Nottingham!

2008-08-01T05:14:00.003+08:00

As you've seen from the title, yea im now in nott already!! its been one week and i cant belieave that im coping so fast and so so well than i've never expected! its actually a really nice place here in nott, as for now i meant, beacuse the weather is just nice for the human being to stay and the one thing that i must mention here is that i've met quite alot of really really super duple nice people within this week! and I realised that British is probably one of the most polite race in the world, erm...yea maybe Japanese is top in the list but British is definitely not far away from Japanese. They just love to say "thank you"...and even the public transport bus drivers also play their role in a very professional way, kept greeting "byebye goodluck thankyou x100" when you are getting down the bus and never get bored of saying that! I guess maybe i grew up in the kind of environment that the government does not really emphasise on the practice of good morality and ethics but instead they think that getting an A in pendidikan moral is more important...and so im now learning to be more polite in this brandly new environment, its really a lecture of life...

For the 1st 3 days, I've already explored to many places around Nottingham. It aint that big after all, just a few sites in the cities to be visited, we've seen the statue of Robin Hood and the Nottingham Castle, its really nothing great, but it worth a go if you are new in nott...just like me, LOL. Shopping is one of the nicest activities now because its now summer sales and I've bought my hand bag and wind breaker in the victoria centre with a super cheap price! Broadmarsh centre is a lower class shopping mall (but, victoria aint that highclass anyway...not as nice as Malaysia one) which you can find 99pence or 1pound shops! Dunkirk-the place that im currently staying now is really far from the place to shop for groceries, walking to Beeston for 20minutes is ok but when you are going back while carrying bags n bags of groceries, aha! u'll know how it feels when u try to walk back to Dunkirk. the only way to reduce the burden is probably taking Rainbow 5 which charge you 1.50pounds once onboard, not economic at all! im feeling lucky that im going to stay on campus when the term starts and Beeston is just 5/10 minutes walk from my accommodation hall, and all the bills like electricity, water, gas and internet are included in the rental which really worth the pay for sure. ^^

the old market square where i walk pass everyday to get de bus back 2dunkirk.

shopping at de city, its summer hot sales now!

tats de trent building of de university of nottingham

de nite of nottingham is when drinkers' life jus begun

i've uploaded more photos in my facebook. u might hav a visit if u r interested. ahaa...those are most importantly for my parents n relatives, and i beg u cant belieave that my dad is using facebook too, how modern-minded he is rite ^^

I’m ready to go!!

2008-07-18T19:29:00.020+08:00

Yes yes…I think I’m mentally and physically ready to go UK! I’ve got everything prepared and I’ve done everything I wish to do before I go…but only one last thing, I haven’t cried yet. Yea, that’s the last thing that I will do before walking into the departure gate waving to my beloved family or even after stepping out from my home in Penang…ish, I know I can’t control my tears, as always…hmmm…what to do, just cry la don care even I will look stupid in front of them…

All these while, I’ve been trying to make the best of everyday, been trying to make use of the remaining time I have before leaving. I took every moment so preciously as if it’s the very last time I would do it…Yeee…how come it sounds like I’m not coming back anymore, indeed I’m really not coming for 2 years…I mean TWO years!! OMG…I just plan to do that but I don’t know whether I can do it…I think I’ll miss home till sick…choy choy choy!!

What I have done during this summer break is actually nothing special but being a little good girl in the house has made me feeling so so good. It was like long long time ago when I was always in the house helping mum with the house works, helping dad with his bakery, doing my homework on time…oh, that was nearly 10 years ago when I was a primary school kid…time flies wei >_< st="on">UK!

And then, yea I went Sarawak with my ex-housemate/future housemate (hah, we plan to stay together in the forth year in our targeted backyard dream house, don’t we?). It was definitely a memorable one especially the night stays at the Iban long house in Kuching Cultural Village and so coincident that it will be the venue of the world musical festival that Denise is visiting in this July!! One thing that I must mention in this trip is that my beloved friends (hmm, how could I forget to shout out loud their names here, they are all poppies wei ^_^ so proudly present DIANA SONG, PEK SAN, CHIEN HUI, YOKE KIM!!!) they gave a real surprise when they visited my partially home town (Penang la I mean, and you know why it is partial) They presented me a big box of pressie with 21 gifts contained inside and it was 99% HELLO KITTY’s items…*big eyes* I suspected that they could be among the members of the secret agent la, how could they manage to cover up everything until they came to Penang?! How did they do it?!! It’s so amazing yet touching!! And Chien has to bear with the checking of the immigration clearance officer for hand-carrying iron made products such as HELLO KITTY’s nail cutter…ahaha pls bear with me for typing HELLO KITTY in capital letters. Thanks and sorry to Chien for having to suffer (or enjoy >_<) the “merabah-rabah” treatment. Don’t you ter-LOL …aha, my vocabulary has gradually improved because of you guys!

the Titto Trip Part II's itinerary designed by me!!

the housemates n the surprising box from them.

the view of Sibu Town with sungai Rajang.

the Hee garden at Sibu aka Diana's home town.

the skull was hung on the....silling!

The stage of the World Musical Festival was just right in front of our window!

Traditional dance by Orang Ulu in the cultural village.

The South China Sea!! x3

Kuching the cat town.

Tr. Maling's Long house where we tasted yummy Tuak (rice wine).

the back of Diana's daddy- the great tour guide of our trip.

hmm...sorry I dont have the patience to post up all the photos especially those nice sarawak's foods that we've tried. the one person that really contributed alot in this trip is Diana's great daddy who brought us around makan main dan minum not even in Sibu but also Kuching where he purposely took a flight to there to meet us and treat us with five stars VIP services...m so touched! Thank You Uncle! oh yea, and I got to practise my hokkien with him throughout the trip, haha.

After the sarawak trip, it was followed by Penang trip where I was the unofficial tour guide. Hopefully they were not bored by me for all the activities that I've arranged, aha. However, I've got to practise as a tour guide in Penang for the 2nd time when my friends POH LING and PEI YEE visited me right after the first batch gone. We went to exactly the same places, imagine me having to visit the same places (eh Ling, we actually went to more places) and eat the same foods within one week n giving the same tour briefing...ahaha...but to the different people la. so that was the fun part for being the tour guide as you are getting familiar with the introduction, LOL.

Ling n Yee at Khoo Kongsi.

Beach walk...isnt it romantic if u r wif someone special?

Francis Light's statue inside Fort Conwallis.

Lov this one!! by LING

arr...again im lazy to post up so many nice photos taken by Ling. I wish they enjoy the trip too. Oh yea, I remembered I told Yee that Penangites were trying very hard hoping that Penang can be listed into the world heritage by UNESCO, they have been kept trying the application for 10 years...and I was moaning to her about this sad things during the heritage walk. MANATAU, jus few weeks after that, Penang has finally n officially a WORLD HERITAGE announced by the UNESCO!!! m so touched n proud eventhou im not a pure penangite...at least or hopefully the economy of the tourism industry will be getting better n better in penang.

Penang is a world heritage! so im ready to go on...ahaha. non-sense...

Hmm...actually more and more gatherings would just only accumulate my reluctancy...yamcha taihey chiongK (cantonese) just make me feel like I want it more here...but I know I can just only get it here...those activities are so pricy in the UK, once in a while can la...but not every weekend anymore >_<

HAIHZ (sigh...) for the last time, so now Siu Sien is ready to face the new life, new people, new challenge! wish me luck pls...LOL

a place far far away...

2008-06-30T23:25:00.005+08:00

ish...the day is approaching...the day of leaving n loads of crying...leaving my best place in the world-home!!! arrgghg....i hope that i have a magic to pause the time, or just slow down the speed of the time...oh no...i cant i cant...pls stop dreaming...no matter what, i know i have to face the truth one day. im excited but quite worry of what is going to happen in this coming new life...new environment...meeting new ppl...the more i think, the more acnes popping out from my little moon face (this explains what happened to my use-to-be-fair-n-smooth face lately..lol). alrite, the solution is, i've been trying lots of different brands of facial cleaser, from haneko to st.ives to garnier to gerneve to clearasil...to i doono-wat-coming-soon....but the outcome seems disappointing. GOD...pls return me my suisui face...lol

okay, lots of ppl don know about why am i going uk so early, same questions i was asked when i told them that im going to uk on the 22nd of july. so here, the answer is "I'm going for summer placement in a pharmacy!" I was so lucky enough to be offered a job in the Co-operative pharmacy in Nottingham for 4 weeks, yes...4 weeks only! but its better than nothing la rite, at least i can get some experience while earning pounds..wuhaha!! What i wanna emphasize is the location of the placement, it is at Selston, Nottingham road. Alrite...maybe you will think its pretty near since its located in the nottingham, BUT...haha...you are absolutely wrong...after few million times of research on the internet and kacau-ing the seniors...the diagram below summarise how shall i get from my accommodation in Dunkirk, nottingham to my workplace in Selston. Pls have a better look before feeling shock...

the dotted purple line shows the direct route, also the quickest n shortest journey found from Dunkirk, Nottingham to Selston Pharmacy,137 NottinghamRoad,Selston,Nottingham,NG166BT.

it looks just a short distance from the map, BUT...see the truth below, the real transportation route which will take me about 1 hour 15 minutes to get to my destination by doing WALK-BUS-WALK-BUS-WALK activities every morning and evening for total of 4 weeks...except weekends la of cos. i personally recommend everyone to use this website http://www.transportdirect.info/Web2/JourneyPlanning/ when you are feeling lost in the uk as it gives detail information of your journey and it LOOKS reliable...looks only...haa.so yea...

so you know whats the negative side of getting a summer placement, for those who cudnt get, at least u will feel glad after realising that you don need to spend your time and energy looking for accommodation and finding out cheapest and most efficient way to get to your pharmacy...for me, i feel better after knowing that Susan (seniors) travelled to her placement for 45 minutes, at least mine only half an hour more than hers, not very over rite, lol. ohyea, jus for you information, i just found out that the pharmacy that im going is not actually Co-operative pharmacy by its name, but its P William pharmacy, which i suppose/suspect is the sub-company of Co-op's company...haihz...profitable world, as u know Co-op is really a big company which does not only open bussiness on just pharmacy but funeral, foods, insurance, bank....etc...as well...Shock no.2?!! lol...don be surprised...

well...a place far far away, UK is so far away from Malaysia/Australia >_<
also...a place far far away, Selston is so far away from Dunkirk
im finding my way to explore the new challenges awaiting me...im coming no matter how far you are!!!

The story of QQ

2008-06-05T08:45:00.013+08:00

Now i would like to tell a story about a dog which is so extra-ordinary cute and brilliant. His name is QQ. QQ's breed is mixed poodle. He is very loyal to his master. QQ on the shoe rack, posing nicely

Three years ago, QQ was rise up by his first owner who is a guy selling drugs (in this case, the drugs stand for illegal drugs such as heroine, marijuana...etc). One day, these drug dealer was caught by the police while he was buying drugs from another drugs manufacturer, and so he was committed as criminal and was put into the jail.

So then QQ was left alone in the criminal's house because no one has ever bother about him but only his owner who has no more freedom. Even the criminal's wife who went to the house for house clearance, she has gotten everything pack up and brought away but never care about QQ and left him there. As a result, QQ was suffering hunger, loneliness and panic in those days without accompany. He was sad...innocence as he didn't know that his master has abandoned him...

After three days, there was this reporter/house owner who went to the criminal's house to check the house if its cleared and ready to rent to a new tenant. That was the time when this house owner found QQ in the house, he looks tired and weak...Out of pityness, the house owner gave QQ to her friend who is also a reporter. QQ finally has somebody to take care of!

QQ has a happily life staying with the new master. He has got the best of everything, the best foods he could have, the best cares that he deserves because he is so adorable and the whole family of the new master love him very very much. They bring him out for a walk everyday, they feed him with cooked mince meat with rice and cookies, they bath him and hair dry and comb his hair, they bring them to the saloon (even the price of a hair cut is much more expensive than Human's one), they play with him so that he wont get bored during the day. QQ likes to play with cloth and chewy sticks. Days after days, QQ has gradually learnt to understand some of the language that the master used.

When the master says: QQ, gia poh lai! (in hokkien means take the cloth here). Then QQ will go and search for the cloth and grab it to the master even if the cloth is hidden somewhere.
When the master says: QQ, pang sai! (in hokkien means pass motion). Then QQ will be happily jumping up to the knee of his master and excitedly run towards the front door indicating that he is going out for a walk!
Sometimes QQ would observe what his master is doing and speaking, he is trying to learn the habit of human. QQ stares people like "i know what you are doing"...that's why he is such a special dog that the master has never come across before. The master has never imagined that he would one day separate with QQ.

But, one day the disaster has happened. After two years of jail's life, the ex-master was free from the jail and started looking for his dog. He called the house owner everyday even though the house owner told him that the dog has already been given to other people two years ago. He even urged and threaten the house owner that he would burn the house or kill the whole family if the house owner could not return the dog to him. The family that has QQ in hand was not known by this criminal and so they were thinking if there is any other possible ways to settle this problem, they have thought of many many ways, they have asked many many people of their opinions, they have even wanted to bluff the criminal that QQ has been sent to the China as during that time, most of the family members are in China and so they were able to call the criminal from China and lied to him. But things just could not work out, everybody was so worried and scared that the criminal would do anything to just get back the dog.

Finally, the family surrendered. Many tears have fell because of QQ, many worries many sadness many many more reluctance...there is no choice but to say goodbye to QQ.

Even thou in the end, the criminal has agreed to let the family bring QQ home for 1/2 days every fortnightly, the house of the family has no longer fill with the joy of having QQ in the house everyday. Every corner in the house reminds the family of QQ's absence...tears come out uncontrollably when the mother of the family realised the absence of QQ, the two sisters of the family have cried too much until the tears have dried out. They are wondering if QQ is having a good life there. The only hope that the family have is to see QQ every fortnightly, to treat him even nicer...to love him even more...they always hope that QQ will come back to them one day...

Thats the ending of the story.

What i want to say now, erm...maybe you will think that a dog does not stand such important place in your heart, but for the family, QQ is more like one of the family member in the house. The truth is, the family is my family...thats why it was such a great impact to me. This happened just during my final exam, and I have alot of emotion during that period of time. Within the three days of revision, I cried for 2 days and I forced myself to study on the last day of revision for the Natural Products paper. If not I could have failed the paper...Because of QQ, I even skipped the visa office trip, partly because I was sick la...heheh

So after Exam, all in my mind was to rush back to my home to see QQ, to spend more time with him before he left the house. I appreciated all the moment with QQ, we went beach, we went different places for a walk, we even brought him together for dinner...all that, counts how much we love QQ.

QQ first came to our house, looking for toilet because he was trained to shit in the there. so guai~

QQ napping on my body, his hair is so smooth n nice to touch

QQ's poohing pose, so cute >_<

QQ after got his hair cut, his hair was tied with ribbons, haha became heterosexual, he likes to sit sengekly like this, so weird but yet so cute!!!

QQ is dinner-ing with us! Salivating while looking at delicious penang's foods

QQ was so scared of the sea, dared not to go near

QQ watching sunset

forever 21, forever friends

2008-05-25T15:56:00.008+08:00

Yo, its finally over...my bday has past with nothing special happened but having the accompany of family is the most precious thing. i must appreciate the time spending with family because not so long from now, I will be going off and might not be seeing them in like 2 years time, OMG...whenever i thought of this my tears would be running in my eyes...

also, not forgetting to thank all the beloved friends who hav wished me through sms, msn or facebook or even my blog here, you guys are the best!! seriously i meant...because im really not a good bday's rememberer...pls forgive me if i have forgotten to wish u on your bday, hehe PAISEH la....

I felt very happy when i received this sweet courier from australia, from the one who stays a very important place in my heart, all his cares and loves.....overwhelm me even we are so far apart, thank you likko (shy shy shy....>_<)

i looked so fat in this autumn/winter jacket, do i? hmm...i think its the size of the jacket too big la...

Past friday, me and my friends went to our secondary school, UHS to have lunch, it really brought back lots of our sweet memories during the secondary school. Teachers seemed still the same, never get older...but the feeling of talking to them has totally changed. Last time we always tried to being a good girl infront of them, cudnt speak out our thoughts freely and have to be self-discipline. But that day, we were having a lengthy and deep talk with Pn. Luar!! people who know Pn. Luar (neh...the one who taught add. math) would definitely know that she is a strict teacher, but she was totally different from the pn. Luar that we know 4 years ago!! She even made fun of hooi shan, making lame jokes and being more like an old friend than a teacher to us!! i seriously love this feeling...it was like an old friend gathering, haha

After lunching at union, we went to Denise's house which is so so far away from georgetown, we took about half an hour or more to reach Balik Pulau. She told me before that her house is in the malay kampung, now i totally believed after seeing it! Anyway, eventhough the house is so remote, but i've totally being amazed by the design of her house. Her dad was the "interior and exterior designer" of the house, he decorated the house with all his antique collections...its old but it brings out the heritage feeling of the house. There are themes allocated for each bedroom which looks nice and seems comfortable to stay in, especially the japanese style one. There are ponds too in the house, that seriously added an extra credits to the overall flow of the house! yea, how should i describe...its so CLOSE TO THE NATURE...

Oh Juliana was ter-catched in the picture.

Another pond in the house...love this one!!

Then, Denise, Hooishan and Juliana gave me my bday pressie while we were at her house. It was hooishan's order to have everyone's hands on the present box and hand it to me. wuahha...so i took this picture down.

they looked so cute and so funny!

This is what inside the box...one nice and big handmade bday card, one sand bottle with messages, one [whats that called] erm...ear protector to keep the ear hot during winter, one penang tourism shirt, one winter glove...thanks you you guys alot alot. i'll bring it all to uk and remembering all of you when i use it!!

and this design below by Juliana is so creative wei~~ mang xiao xiao, our future interior designer!

Lastly, i would like to thank all of you who have been such a great friend to me, Friends Forever and a Forever 21 for myself!

Official launching of my blog!

2008-05-19T17:32:00.005+08:00

Hello everyone!!! Hey you, and you...and you...yes you!!! You are reading my blog, yea its me its me I'm SiuSien! Finally I've got my own blog, I will take this blog seriously, at least I wont abandon it or leaving it accumulated with dust like how I treated my Friendster's blog. Actually the purpose of me creating this blog is to post photos and write things about myself during my time in the UK. As my dad is an old yet modern dad, haha~~ guess what he surfs the net everyday and update himself from the internet, so I was having this idea of blogging so my dad and my family can always keep track of things happen around me through this blog.

All these while I've not been able to update my stuff in the internet because I was staying in the jungle!!! Yea, university of Nottingham in Semenyih is so much appropriate to be described as a jungle...fulled of palm trees, insects, animals eg. snakes, ducks...

University of Nottingham in Semenyih is surrounded by oil palm estate, the big lake is the trade mark of uni of nott. By the way, the picture is not an updated picture.

And the nottingham's ducks, they are almost like the famous stars in the campus, students in the campus seemed very interested in the number of ducks we have in the lake. It was 7 ducks initially when I first came to the university, and as time passed, the number has gradually increased and now its more than 15 already!!!

Ducks feeding on valentine's day, the first and the only time. Thanks Pek San for layaning me

I've been enjoying these 2 years spending time with my friends, especially my housemate Diana Song, Pek San, Chien Hui and Yoke Kim who have been so nice to me. Million of thanks to you guys for everything that you've done for me. Thanks for bearing with me for anything that I've done which might have made you behsong...Diana Beh Song...wuahaha

Okla, I donno what else I want to say, I'll try to be a good blogger who keep updating the blog always, not only that, but write some interesting stuffs which would attract your interest. I'll try my very best la k, please continue to be my reader if I dont bore you to death....hahah

wait wait, did i say I'm going to uk?!! yes yes, its real! I will be going to Nottingham on the 22nd of July, to continue my 3rd and 4th year of studies there. In case you've forgotten, I'm studying Pharmacy now...Hopefully after finally year, I will be able to get pre-registration training in the UK, so then I will be able to register as a Pharmacist!!! I'm so looking forward to my life in the UK...I wonder how would it be...and I'm so looking forward to meet my friend Xin Yun in Ireland after my summer placement!