Everything in 2008

ohkay i set a target to myself that i must write at least a post every month, im getting dragged on time managing as nowadays even there's no need to attend classes during the study break but the whole big stacks of notes and books have just filled up the so called "study break", isnt it should be a break from study, hmmm...why am i doing so much of studies during this break, jelaka~~~ i realised that at this time in Malaysia, i should be hanging out with friends at some new year's eve countdown event, its so pathetic that I'm hanging out with my headache-causing medicinal chemistry's past year papers now...i dont want la! well...think it the other way, its just a tough period that you cant avoid and you must try your very best to go through this time as the more effort you've instillled, the more in return you'll be rewarded in the future. As Likzai has always said :"no pain no gain" yea i strongly agree with you but i just dont have the urge to follow this principle now, am i getting lazier? yes i think i do...any cure? NO, you yourself is the only one that can save yourself, its a matter of whether you want to do it or not, rite? here i would like to thank my roommate for being a good motivator to me as whenever i see her rajin-ness, i feel ashamed of myself and started drilling my big head into de pool of notes, oh yeah motivation is so important at this period of time.

Come on...crap crap crap here, i think i'm more willing to spend time on blogging than studying now, more willing to do house work than studying, more eagly to work than study now! i know you will say i should not be thinking this way as i stil have 2 more years (eh nono, jus one and a half years) to strive through, you've plenty of time to work after that...hmmm...yea maybe i just feel like doing something else other than studying, anything else will do as long as it doesnt involve handouts books pens and papers...im so sick of those stuffs! they've been dreaded my life for 2 weeks plus and i've to face them for another 2 weeks (oh well,one week plus...)just doesnt make any difference as i hate them alot now!!! i said NOW...i know i'll have to force myself to fall in love with them again the next moment i finish posting this bloggy.

Lets back to the point of this post, im going to leave my personal comments on how i see every special things happened in 2008. Firstly, i've to say coming to the UK is the biggest event happened this year, as I've always thought that studying overseas is a dream to me and now that I've achieved it, all thanks to my family who kept on supporting me in whatever way they can, either mentally or financially, they've been such a great family and without them, I'm not at where I'm now. All i want to do now is to make my every effort to reward them back, i wanna make some proud achievements in my future pharamcist career and make everyone's life better! (LOL why do i sound so great) i just simply wanna show how much i love my family ( i know i'm not good in showing my feeling), and i promise i will make you guys proud and be sure that for what you're instilling on me now, it worths for a better future, I promise you!


This was taken on the last CNY, it's what deep in my heart that i've never said to my family, i'm sorry for not able to re-union in the coming CNY, anyway please keep my angpaos safe, hahah


For those who have heard of story about QQ, i'm so sad to tell you that the battle between us and the drug addict has over and QQ has been jailed by him using every single rude action that he could think of to pull us and QQ apart, QQ will not be able to re-union with us anymore, will he? T_T well, i feel like crying whenever i think of QQ, revising his pictures each time i miss him, it further adds on my craving for him, i miss him very badly actually, i think i'll need a long period of time to settle down the feeling of loosing QQ, QQ QQ QQ i want you back!!!

ehem *clear throat and reabsorption of tears* okay back to the topic, it'll be kinda stressful if you make studying in the UK sounds like a mission ( i admit i'm partially on a mission now, to get a professional degree), ahhaha actually there are many other things that we've or will be experienced during the period of pursueing studies in the UK, not only those thing that you can learn in the University but also other interesting stuffs out of the text book. Travelling is a good example to make your study life more exciting, so far I've been to Birmingham, Bath, Stonehenge, and IRELAND!!! hmm not as many as other friends who have been joining travel society's trip every time when there were trips organised, not as many as YUN who has almost finished exploring Europe within 2 and half years, but I feel that my life has been pretty enriched with tours, i guess travelling to 4 places in 5 months is not the normal amount of trip that i would usually do back in Malaysia. Huh, actually not bad huh! I swear to mayself that i would travel more often whenever i'm able to, in terms of finance, i dont feel like using family's hard-earn money to spend it on something which i'm the only one who enjoy it but not with them together, thus i would want to work (in fact, i'm very thrist of finding a part time job) to earn extra pounds to support many other things that i want to do. Everyone out there, job for me?

LOL...i dont know what to say now as i think my nerves and neurons are stored with those nutrition, advanced drug delivery and medicinal chemistry's stuffs (honestly, i've not started molecular pharmacology yet!), my brain is running low of RAM to think of something. Oh yea suddenly feel like thanking my dearest boss/friend in co-op selston, Gimms for sending me the company's xmas card, haha appreciated alot that you still remember me at this greeting season (at this busy moment in the pharmacy as people thought the chemist will be closed for 6 months for xmas, its so laughable!), you said there might be snowing during xmas day but there wasnt! abit sad and disappointed but what to do, we cant predict the weather just like we cant predict exam's questions (LOL i guess im having exam-phobia now)

Next i want to thank that person who has been such a great someone-to-talk-to all these years, eventhough there is nothing we can do now but lets wait til the day we meet, we've proved that distance is not a barrier, stay strong and grow stronger k?

collection of memories for all that we've been through...hope you'll like it when you see it ^.^


and this new song from Leehom's latest album - Everything, specially dedicated to that special one in my heart on this special day, the begin of every great things...

Everything

故事里的 起承转合 有一些忘记
做了多少错误的选择
原来波折 才暗示着 该走的方向
指引你我来到这一刻
就算别人都说 我们没什么出息
不可能会这样轻易放弃
Cause You're My Everything
就一个原因 让我勇敢面对这个世界
想给你Everything
不管用多少个明天 永远从此刻开始算起
你的爱是我的Everything

辽阔天际 巧合相遇 有多少机率
多少烟火 坠落无痕迹
因为幸福 没有捷径 难免要绕道
不被看好越是要走到
就算别人都说 我们没什么出息
不可能会这样轻易放弃
你就是Everything
就这个原因 让我勇敢面对这个世界
想给你Everything
只要你说一声愿意 所有的未来才有意义
你的爱是我的Everything

Cause You're My Everything
就这个原因 让我勇敢面对这个世界
想给你Everything
不管用多少个明天 永远从此刻开始算起
你就是Everything
就如这个原因 我会永远记住这种感觉
想给你Everything
只要你说一声愿意 所有的未来才有意义
你的爱是我的Everything



For everything great things happened in 2008, thanks to my beloved mum, dad, hui, len, ching, next come likzai (who turns into zainan recently) and then those close friends, love you guys forever! you've made my 2008 so wonderfully unforgettable ^.^

死亡游戏

In memory of my dear auntie who was called back by her Lord to the heavenly heaven on the 11th of November 2008, the article was written by an author whom has a close relationship with her and its dedicated to everyone for the memorance of her being the strongest person to fight with the illness and the ending of her suffers. She is now blessing everyone up there...turning into one of the stars, shining and blinking on us in the dark as if she is smiling to us and says: "I'm fine here!"

This article reminds me of how important HEALTH is to an individual, please love your body!

死亡游戏

~于亲人郑淑真回魂日~

许心伦手笔
二零零八年十一月十六日



阿珍日记 2008年 2月

新年期间，我回老家-双礼佛过年。大家看到我时，都异口同声的说：你瘦了！那真好呀！我减肥成功了！我实在高兴。我终于可以瘦身，可以穿漂亮的衣服。其实，我并没有特意减肥。既然可以没来由的瘦下来，那真是最好不过。因为瘦了，这个新年，我还特地买了两套紧身的新衣服。我还把它穿起来展示给丽环嫂嫂看，好招摇一番，因为她现在还是胖胖的，总是瘦不下来。


阿珍日记 2008年 4月

奇怪？我不是瘦了吗？为何我的裤头却越来越紧了呢？我的肚腩又再现形了。没理由。我的肚子是不是出了问题？可是，我从来不曾感觉胃涨风或肚子痛。我往涨得圆鼓鼓的肚子轻轻一按。咦？它是硬的！它像是一粒已打满风的篮球。
我被吓了一跳。它里面会是什么东西？难道它也像我妈从前肚子里的那一种<东西>吗？那是一粒生长在子宫内的<肉瘤>。妈妈因害怕开刀还带着那粒大瘤生活了好几年。后来开了刀，割了瘤，妈妈依然健健康康的活到今天。我想，不会有事的。我去给医生看看就是了。方哥陪我去医院做了超音波扫描检验( Ultra-Sound ) 及X-光照射图。检验显示我右边的卵巢颈旁长了一粒像青椰子般大的<肿瘤>！医生马上建议我验血做癌细胞指数测试(Cancer Cell Marker Test)及做全身核磁共振摄影( CT-Scan) 。结果显示：我的癌细胞指数偏高。我的全身核磁共振图显现我的肝脏也有细微的小白点。医生说那是属于一种轻微的损伤，较后再处理不迟。庆幸的是，身上其他器官完好无损。虽然我的癌细胞指数偏高，但是医生还不能向我说明那就是来自卵巢瘤里的病变。他们必须对那粒肉瘤进行病理化验才能具体证实。在这个期间，我才知道事态严重。我与方哥马上拜访了城里一个有名的中医。中医说，我的肿瘤太大了，直径达11公分，必须先割除后才能用中药调理。方哥为我接洽了住院开刀的时间与手续。由于清明节快到了，我必须先回乡拜祭父亲与哥哥，就把开刀的日期排在清明之后。清明前的晚上，我与方哥从吉隆坡坐了6小时的车回老家。第二天一早就赶往扫墓。我在墓地上锄了1小时的草，把四周打扫干净。祭拜完毕回到家，我竟然累得席地而睡，非常反常。我平日身体无痒无痛，工作日以继夜从不言累。我才49岁，身体健壮，现在只锄锄草，竟然会累成这样。这会不会是肚内的<肿瘤>在作怪？


阿珍日记 2008年 5月 3日

明天，我就要进院割除肿瘤了。我很乐观，因为我的妈妈也做过这样的手术。她现在人好好的，还吃得胖胖的。 我会住院4天。我的姐姐会来照顾我。今天的晚餐，我亲自下厨。虽然明天就要开刀了，但是我感觉身体无碍，不痛也不痒，我自然以对，没有害怕的感觉。


阿珍日记 2008年 5月 4日

一早来到医院，护士马上安排我验血、宽衣、消毒局部、打麻醉剂。时为午间2点。当一剂麻醉药从我腰间的脊椎骨打入时，真是叫我痛得呼天抢地。我拼出吃奶力紧抓住面前的铁床栏杆，试图不叫出声音。渐渐地，我失去了知觉。 醒来时，已是下午6点。我下体的肿瘤与子宫已被切除了，留下一条蜈蚣的足迹。一切还好。四天后，我就可以出院了。


阿珍日记 2008年 5月 8日

经过四天的疗养后，我的体力恢复了，可以缓慢的走动，只是，动过手术的切口还在隐隐作痛，人也瘦了一大圈。我穿上美丽的衣服，准备出院。不过，出院之前，必须等待接受医生的诊视。保罗医生面容带笑，像完成了一个重大的工程似的，轻松的对我说道：肿瘤成功的切割出来了。从大腿抽取出来化验的淋巴结证实没有癌细胞。目前你的身体没有发现有恶细胞的残余。不过，在开刀过程中，肿瘤的外皮稍微破裂，为了以防万一，你必须做3次低剂量的化疗。化疗？我吓了一跳。不会掉头发的。医生补充说。疗剂一支多少钱？姐姐问。不要问了。我不做化疗。我坚决的回应。不知为什么，我一听到<化疗>，竟然莫名其妙的害怕起来。化疗的副作用太可怕了，那会掉头发的。我身上没有癌细胞。我不是得到癌症！医生看着我，愣了愣，接着说：那就等3个月后验血吧。姐姐马上接口道：3个月太长了吧，万一一个月后就有癌细胞了呢？3个月之内是验不到癌细胞的踪影的。医生说。我太高兴了。我不必做化疗。我一定没事。我为自己打包单。医生说我现在的淋巴结没有癌细胞，我相信以后也没有。


+医院病理部化验报告+ 2008年 5月8日

经过开刀割除<卵巢肿瘤>后化验的结果，名为阿珍的病人已证实是得到<第一期>的<卵巢癌>。病人肚内的肿瘤体积为11 X 8 X 6公分，大部分的外层组织为软性的纤维体，但是中间却见一小部分的硬实体。这小部分的硬体就是癌细胞组织。它原本是<良性>的，但在发现时已开始长大并转变为<恶性>。


*癌症医学知识*


癌症既是<恶性肿瘤>，为一种疾病。它是由控制细胞生长增殖机制的失常而引起。癌细胞除了生长失控外，还会局部侵入周遭正常组织，甚至经由体内<循环系统>或<淋巴系统>转移到身体其他部分。癌细胞持续生长而不受外在讯息调控，可能是原本失活的原癌基因被激活，将细胞导入到癌变状态，但主要还是因为一些与控制细胞分裂有关的<蛋白质>出现异常。导致这种局面既可能是该<蛋白质>编码的<去氧核糖核酸>因<突变>而出现了<损伤>。正常组织转变成<肿瘤>需经一连串的过程。从最初期的细胞增生，多半可籍由身体本身的<防疫机制>加以清除或保持稳定。当它成为一团肿块的<良性肿瘤>时，身体已无法自立将其去除，而只能选择共存。但是也并非所有<良性肿瘤>都会转变成<恶性肿瘤>。癌症是<基因>引起的疾病。当调控细胞生长的基因发生<突变>或<损坏>时，细胞便失去控制，并持续的生长与分裂而产生肿瘤。大部分人体内的细胞是不会持续分裂生长的。


阿珍日记 2008年 6月

姐姐已告诉我是得了第一期的癌症，但肿瘤已经割除了。开刀后的验血报告也显示我的体内没有癌细胞。我很放心。既然没有癌细胞，我也没有必要做化疗。之前医生要我做化疗，我一口拒绝了。我对自己有信心。我可以吃中药保健与控制。方哥带我去看了中医。中药真难喝。我喝了几次就放弃了。


阿珍日记 2008年 7月

我不能等到3个月后才验血。我急于知道我的身体状况。我在开刀两个月后去医院验血。谢天谢地。我的血液癌症指数正常，没有升高。


阿珍日记 2008年 8月 11日


割除肿瘤后的第3个月内，我感觉我的两条腿经常酸痛无力并有肿胀现象。我的排泄系统也出了问题，必须借助泻药与润肠剂。间中，我往返医院几次，向医生请教。医生依情况配药给我。3个月后，我照医生的吩咐回医院验血及做CT-SCAN。这次才是最关键的检验。


+核磁共振摄影报告+ 2008年 8月 11日

报告显示：病人直肠处出现了一粒体积6 X 5 X 6公分的肿瘤。它导致排便肠道变窄。
通便肠道有轻微损伤。
肝脏内被发现有许多体积大小不等的损伤点。
左肺部有小节瘤。

结论：骨盘恶性癌毒复发。癌细胞已扩散至肝脏与肺部。


方哥日记 2008年 8月11日

天啊！为何是这样？这个噩耗来得太出乎人意料之外了！恶性肿瘤竟然可以在一个月之内着床？而且成长的速度惊人！这3个月来，阿珍的伤口快复原了，但元气却恢复的很慢。她的胃口与食欲逐渐减退，身体也渐渐地消瘦。难道说这些天来，隐藏着的癌细胞已经在慢慢的腐蚀着她的生理机能？难道说那些还未现形的癌细胞已在忙着吸取她身上所有的养料？我暂时不能告诉她这个噩耗，以免让她丧失求生的斗志。医生安排6次<化疗>( Chemotherapy )，每3个星期一次。


方哥日记 2008年 9月 16日

2次化疗期间，阿珍承受了许多痛苦的后果。她容易发烧、呕吐，头发也开始掉落。然而，直肠内的肿瘤并没有明显的缩小。经医生建议，决定采用电疗(radiotherapy ) 以放射线治疗方式直接杀灭直肠内的肿瘤。医生安排10次电疗。每天一次。


方哥日记 2008年 9月 24日

做完10次电疗后，医生建议为阿珍再做一次核磁共振摄影(CT-SCAN)，以检验体内的癌细胞状况。医生发现阿珍直肠内的肿瘤收缩了，但是，癌细胞已严重的扩散至肝脏。肝脏内的肿瘤开始在迅速生长。医生慎重的对我说：癌细胞已经转移，进入癌症第四期，如果没有医治，病人的寿命只剩下3个月。医生也对我说：虽然癌症已到末期，存活的巴仙率很低，但病人的求生意志力与积极的生活态度很重要。它能协助延长生命。医生安排18次的化疗，每星期一次。这次的化疗，主要是针对肝脏的癌细胞，也是要杀灭在体内扩散的其他癌细胞。


方哥日记 2008年 10月15日

在这段非常与紧急时期，为了要让阿珍配合其他治疗，我不得不向阿珍透露她真正的病情。阿珍很平静的接受这最坏的消息，没有半点激动的情绪。我想她早已有心里准备。阿珍知道自己的病情后，终于接受寻求额外的民间治疗。我带她寻访了几个中医与癌症痊愈病人，开始吃中药；也喝抗癌的青草汁如-木瓜叶、红毛榴连叶。然而，很不幸的，两次的化疗过后，阿珍的肝脏并没有好转的迹象，反而恶化。她的肝脏开始肿胀与疼痛。医生不得不配给减痛剂-麻啡 (MOFFEINE) 以减少病人的痛苦。此时，阿珍停止做化疗，既是说，这阶段的治疗已接近尾声。医生说病人已病入膏肓，再也没有痊愈的机会了，有的，也只是延长生命的钟点吧了。医生要我为阿珍签下<医疗切割书>。这是要证明医院与医生已经尽了最大的努力与人事。


方哥日记 2008年 11月 7日

阿珍的病情越来越危急了，她已进院好几天。据医生说，她的生命的终点就在这几天内。很凑巧的是，青青的婚礼就在明天的槟威<光大楼>举行。当时，阿珍的老朋友-阿连，她在吉隆波工作的女儿获悉阿珍病重后，就天天来探望。阿珍的妈妈也叫我必须出席婚礼。我就安排医生与护士特别照顾阿珍。不过，我必须在两天内赶回来。我将在明天临晨4点开车上槟城出席阿青的婚礼。


方哥日记 2008年 11月 8日

医生说，阿珍可能过不了今天或明天。今天顺利的出席了婚礼。我将在明天临晨4点开车赶回吉隆坡医院。


阿伦日记 2008年 11月 10日 午间2时

今天早上，阿珍开始表现异常。她的脸色渐渐苍白。她的眼神开始呆滞。她说话开始语焉不详。她的意识开始模糊。但她仍依稀记得谁人的模样。阿珍的呼吸像出自一条阻塞的气管，发出很大的音响。她呼吸的节奏开始加快，像上气不接下气的样子。几个星期不见，阿珍的脸盘与体型突然变了一个模样。以往骨瘦如柴，皮包骨的她忽然膨胀似的胖了起来。她的肚子发涨的犹如九月初九九皇爷摊口卖的大面龟，高高的拱了上来。原来，那是肝脏肿胀与下垂所导致，再加上内积水的关系，阿珍的四肢也连带发涨坚硬。我发现阿珍的口腔带血，只见血水不断涌现。不知癌细胞是不是已游移到了阿珍的头部与全身，她不断的抓头皮与摆动四肢，像一只热锅上的蚂蚁。 阿珍的妈妈在一旁老泪纵横，她一直嚷着要乘阿珍还有呼吸时送她回双礼佛老家，以免迟了进门。她询问阿珍的意思，阿珍迷迷糊糊的说：护士叫她留下来医治。阿珍到最后一刻还要在医院做治疗。不过，在她妈妈不断的追问下，她终于做了一个迷糊也含糊的回：Cinchailah。。。。

下午6时，阿珍的兄弟姐妹都到医院来了。
黄昏8时，主治医生来了。
刘医生说：病人的肝脏、肺、肾已经停止操作。血液开始凝结，并在皮肤下堆积成红点。她只剩下几小时的生命了。

此时，躺在病床上的阿珍脸色变得惨白，明显已陷入了昏迷的状态中，而只有心脏，尚在苟延残喘。。。我急忙叫护士为阿珍洗涤、净身，再穿上整齐的衣服，戴上假发。阿珍至始至终，都要为自己维护一个美丽的外表，不让人看到自己的丑态。我希望她能光鲜上路。。。


阿伦日记 2008年 11月 10日 入夜9点

阿珍只剩下几小时的生命！生命竟然到了用小时来计算，真是太可怕了。我还一直以为我们有很长的生命可以挥霍。想不到阿珍的生命这么快就来到了尽头。当救伤车的医药人员把已经静止活动的阿珍用绳子绑在救伤推椅上时，我忽然想到了粽子。棕子内的糯米已经没有自由与伸展的空间了。它们只能在被囹圄中发涨与挣扎。救伤车像一只穿着白衣的追魂鬼，一冲出马路就从头上喷出红色的血光，依哦依哦开山劈道，充分的展现了它的追命精神。然而，尽管追魂车开得有如喷射机，那已经没有阿珍的事了。她现在最后的一项工作就是不停的呼吸，不停的呼吸。只要她能保持呼吸到家，她就是胜利了。10点38分。救伤车抵达霹雳毛边。我发现阿珍开始拉长她的呼吸时间。我感觉到她的心脏的操作开始缓慢。我发现她的呼吸必须用劲，以至舌头也跟着一呼一吸。我发现她紧闭的双眼忽然在此刻微微半张，但是，她的眼珠已经凝固在焦点之外。我渴望她能回光返照，对我说些什么。我只能不停的对她说：阿珍，快到家了，快到家了，你妈妈在门口等着你了。你不要再睡了，不要再睡了。。。 医药人员的急救功亏一篑。多少氧气也唤不回即将停止的心脏。
回家的路布满了石子，崎岖难行。我被震得晕头转向，频频作呕，但是，在我身边沉睡的阿珍动也不动，她的魂魄头也不回的离开了她的躯体；离开了救伤车，随风飘走了。从此，她脱离了人生的苦海。苦海无边啊。从此，她是一只飘在云边的闲云野鹤，不必再为觅食而生存；不必再为病痛遍体鳞伤；不必再为名利财气追波逐浪。阿珍小妹，你的离去并不是没有价值的。你让我在你身上得到了许多启示。你让我看到了许多人在人性上的许多问题。

是的。每一个人，到每一个阶段，一定要拥有那个阶段的智慧与对事物的分析能力与警戒心。每一个人要为自己的成长负责。每一个人要对每一件事心有成竹，以免一失足成千古恨。每一个人都要懂得如何应对生活中的每一个问题。这种智慧是靠学习、上进、自强、阅读、储存资讯而来的。阿珍，你是失足于太过大意与没有警戒心。你的资讯储备量也太少了。

是的。每个人的解码水平都会因所处的环境与学识范畴而有差异。这些差异带来了很多的误解与偏见。然而，误解是可以用交流与沟通来稀释的，而不是我在此扎马，隔岸观火，你死你事，或是造谣生非，使两派人马两败俱伤。许多人都犯了这样的错误。我们也几乎跌入了这样的陷阱里。

从你的身上，我更加的了解到：健康才是最重要的。病从浅中医，一定有活命的机会。生病并不可怕。最怕是错过了医病的时辰。最怕是固执己见，不肯接纳好的建议。而最最可怕的，是以小人之心度君子之腹。本是同根生，大家的血脉相连，你走了，我们的血脉也已断流。然而，不管你走得多远，我们的门口永远为你打开。纵然你的思想与我们南辕北辙，你身上流的血，绝不会因空间而改变颜色。你的早逝，为我们敲了一句警钟。生命诚可贵，亲情价更高啊。

末了，安息吧。
祖母的花园永远为你开放。。。

死神日记 2008年 11月10日


哈哈哈，人类是斗不过我的。
人类自称是万物之灵，但是，却永远玩不过我。<死亡游戏>是我的强项。我只要在她身边飘过，她就会随我而去。
阿珍病人从发病到离去，不过10个月，是太快了些。其实癌症并不是绝症，只要把握时机医治，调适心情，并不能让我有机可乘。如果有注意，癌症通常会显示一些症状，如：
*局部症状：异常肿块、出血。
*恶性转移症状：淋巴结肿大、咳嗽、咳血、肝肿大、骨头疼痛。
*全身性症状：体重减轻、食欲不振、大量出汗、贫血。

如何避免患上癌症？
最基本的功夫是远离<致癌物>如：烟、酒、防腐剂、烧烤煎炸食物、快餐、有气饮品。改变不良的生活习惯。多运动。避免过度肥胖等。

啊呀，我是死神。我不能给你们太多活命的<贴示>，以免阎罗王<罗我条命>，让我死多一次。你们好自为之吧。

至于阿珍魂魄，由于她的手艺了得，我已引领她走向另一段新的旅程。她很好，新年过后，她就会在我的老板-阎罗王开的cake house上班，你们放心。。。。
拜拜。。。。

Meal deals

*yawn* I really hardly find anything to talk about recently, there's been nothing special happened in my life, uni has jus started...eh nonono, its going into the 5th weeks!!! OMG >_< time flies in a blink of an eye! and yea, it was like a blow of autumn's wind, seems that there were alot of events going on and life's been filled with lectures and lectures and more lectures...but I don't feel like I've done much things, nothing was left after the blow of autumn's wind probably because I've been dreaming all these while, I guess I'm getting less interest in studying/ motivational deficiency disorders (I need Strivor to boost up my life!). Actually, all in my mind now is to earn POUNDS and more POUNDS, after I realised how valuable a pound is (and after I've received all my pay from Co-op and Boots, the excitement of earning pounds just simply overwhelmed me!) $_$

Most of my time now has been spent at Biology Building B3, Math & Physics B1, Medical School LT1, LT4, LT3, C50, Pope Building C14, C16, Coates Auditorium A150...oh unbelievable, I'm now managed to type out all the lecture venues without looking at the time table (a typical angmor's reply: Brilliant! Lovely! Excellent!)It was initially seemed to be a long journey to walk to classes everyday early in the morning, but now I've already got use to the 20 mins walking from Broadgate Park to the lecture halls, it's everyday's routine...its dull...its depressing sometimes...with bad weather...with strong wind...with sleepy eyes...without excitement, I'm getting quieter...as of last time, I used to speak whatever I want to say in my mind, I used to give silly comments about any possible things flink through my thought, I used to tell jokes that I would get a good response from the fellow friends...haihz...I don't know what happen to me, I'm changing, in terms of personalities. I feel like I'm not the one that I knew last time...

All right, all right I'm all right, just a little bit of complaint about myself for my lousy performance all these days in the uni. PEOPLE, please allow me some time to incorporate myself properly into this new environment.

Aww...I think I'm abit out of the topic now, let's get back to the point! Oh yea, just want to show everyone some pictures of the moments that I've always been craving for, they can possibly be ranked as the best moments of everyday's life, I'm always mentally and physically excited when these moments have come...and there are...


my 1st own cooked dinner in BGP! Steamed salmon and Blunched broccoli


Another amazing dinner time with Curry Chickens and Spain Sprouts + mushrooms!


OH My goodness! Bak Kut Teh, my next bowl of BKT will be in December when my parcel comes in...such a long time to wait


Aww...this is absolutely awesome! I couldn't believe that I made Tu Kah Choh!


Look at this, its my lunch pack! don't be silly, this portion is abnormal! I'm getting better in my appetite >_<


A day of western meals, Jacket potatoes, Black Pepper Pork Steaks, Baked Beans, Coleslaw, Scrambled Eggs.


again, chinese cook and the recipe of the day is Ginger Onion Pork!


The ABC soup made me miss mum's soup so badly because it tasted just like mum's cooking


Isn't this set of meal looks great, 1 fish 1 meat 1 vege, so healthy and pretty!


AHAHAHA, this is definitely not made by me. If you've ever stayed in the catered hall during welcome week probably you'll know where is this from. I'm kinda miss the foods served by the hall, eventhou it was abit lack of variety in their menus but it's quite delicious...probably I wont be having the same thought if I'm eating it for long term...hehehe

Oh yeah, would like to take this opportunity to thank my roomate Dee Sin Tan for making every dinner a success, ahaha! yea, we've been well trained back in sunway semenyih, cooking is just easy peasy for us right ^_^

Also, thanks for being my roommate, you are the best roommie that I've ever had! (erm...I've never shared room with anyone before, bluek) So yea, let's keep it up our chef's spirit and come out with more and more high standards meals in the future!

Awesome Ireland!

Sorry I've been away from my blog for such a long time, I'm cutting down my blogging frequency from at least two a month to just one a month, as you know, uni has just started and I don't think I'll be having much free time on this anymore...the nightmare is starting soon...GOD BLESS ME

okay, as I've promised. I'll be talking about my trip to Ireland in this post. It was a really great time spending with my best friend -XinYun who has been such a wonderful tour guide thoughout the trip, she brought us around Ireland, not only Dublin but also Northern and South Ireland! Eventhou its just a one week trip but we have made used of every little moment to look for fun, haha...thanks XinYun for doing the well planning...I hope I can visit you again before you go back to Malaysia, thats very soon...early next year right. It sounds abit hard for me to see you again in Ireland or somewhere in Europe, anyway...we will try, arent we?

The trip can be separated into three parts which are Dublin, Northern Ireland and South Ireland. Dublin is the temporary home of XinYun for 2 and a half years, her college is really close to the city, no no no...I should say its inside the city, just a couple minutes of walk to all the shopping streets and tourist spots. Dublin is a vibrant city, and I bet you don't know about the birth of Guinness Stout is actually from Dublin! yea, thats true...the guinness that you find everywhere in the world is from Dublin!!! and yes...I've got my first taste of Guinness in the Temple Bar which is the oldest bar in Dublin. It was not as nice as expected but at least I've tried Guinness at the place of its origin, hahaha...nothing to be proud of. The traditional Irish cuisine was also the highlight in Dublin., eventhou the Irish Stew and Smoked Salmon is a little bit pricey but I think it worth the money to have a try, its really yummy thou.

Drunk siu after drinking Guinnessssss

Irish stew and Smoked Salmon!!!drooling...
Xin Yun's medical college located in the city centre

Tell you what...Giant Causeway is a place you definitely don't wanna miss if you've ever thought of visiting Ireland. Its listed in the world heritage and its really really as giant as its name...I'm really impressed by the spectacular view...imagine all the stones in hexagonal shaped are all come from the nature, and they are in abundance not one or two!!! Its really unusual...so lots of nice pictures have been taken there and I'm still craving for more nice pictures after coming back to Nottingham because XinYun didnt transfer the complete album to me...gonna wait til the next time we meet which its a date not known >_< style="text-align: center;">Carrick-A-Rede the hanging bridge

nice people everywhere

what im going to share now is about a few nice people that i've met in the UK in just the 1st four weeks since i arrived here. its really grateful to have met them and received their helps and cares in this new environment. They just made me feel warm!

The first person that i wanna talk about is my boss in my pharmacy, OMG...he is the kindest boss that i've ever met. im wondering is it because of us being the same race (he is a BBC) and thats why he takes extra cares of me? but no matter what, its a fact that he is a very good example to be learnt from, his professionality in his pharmacy career, his bussiness-mind as a branch manager and his attitude in doing everything...he is so close to perfect but haha...nobody in this world is perfect! well, i sincerely appreciated that he allows me to go to the pharmacy late and go home earlier just to match my time with the bus schedule (and if you dont know, the co-operative pharmacy in selston is about 1 hour bus ride from the city! its a superly remote place), im really touched of what he has agreed. Because of his special allowance, i've got to work less hours but getting the same paid, what a good deal rite! also because of that, i even get home earlier than Christine who is working at Wollaton which is only about half an hour walk distance from our house in Dunkirk, that kinda makes me proud of the branch that i've gotten eventhou its so far away, haha. and...my boss is a really nice tutor because he is so so knowledgable and smart. I've got this summer placement workbook to be completed and he guides me alot in doing it and always inspiring me in whatever pharmacy-related issues. One thing im not quite get use to is that he always emphasise the importance of Standard Operating Procedures (S.O.P) and that makes me feel really stress while working with him. maybe thats the way he likes to stay with, thats how he has made til the person he is today...*respecting by bowing* other than his professionality in the pharmacy, he is also very good in promoting chinese restaurants and groceries shops in Notts (lol, does this count too) im really appreciated for all the nice places he has recommended and i'll definitely pay a visit when im free, i can probably do it this week since im having a one week break and next week im going to visit XINYUN in IRELAND!!! OMG...cant wait to see her!

the one hour journey to selston, passing by a huge farm land where u can see cows n sheeps

the co-operative pharmacy is just next to the Selston Surgery, doing lots of POM

My dearest colleagues Dawn to my right and Andrea to my left

take a closer look of my badge, see de strange thing? thx Gimms for de special allowance!
My boss aka the branch manager, the one who always follow the rules except the last day, haha
me in my formal working attire, transitting at Nott's city
me in my "cute" working attire says christine

okay, u can check more of my working pictures in facebook. and now im going to talk about the 2nd nice person, nono...probably de 2nd nice gang of people, they come in a group, aha. u must be wondering who am i saying...well, they are the bus drivers! Rainbow 5 and Rainbow 1 are the buses that i took to get to my work place, and because Selston is out of the boundary of the multiple ride access card, i had no choice but to buy FRio which gives me 3 free trips when i buy 10 trips at a time. so the good thing was, i didnt actually get to finish using all my trips in the bus tickets because of all these super duple nice bus drivers who purposely didnt want to punch a whole on my ticket and just let me onboard the bus. They wud either blink their eyes or give me a warm smile to show that they are being kind to me...well, i sincerely and truly appreciated their kindness....i hope i didnt cause any trouble to them with their company after that.

SS pic on de bus, u cant do anyting on de long journey bus except doing stupid thing like this

another ss pic, ss= siusien/shiok sendiri

yea, probably the nice person that im going to talk about now is not the last nice person that i've met but dont you be surprised that there are really lots of nice ppl in the UK! there is this saying in mandarin 出门遇贵人, and now i totally understand its meaning. Just two days ago, me and christine went to Birmingham to visit my neighbour back in Penang, our house are just few units away. They are Susan and Peter whom i seldom met in Penang, one of the reason is that most of the time i was in kl the semenyih kampung and the other reason is that they are staying in Cotsall, Wolverhampton most of the time. Out of our expectation, we have received a super V.I.P treatment from them, we were too surprised with all the care that overwhelmed us for that 2 days, it was a fabulous trip for me! They brought us around Birmingham City (i just found out that Birmingham is the 2nd largest city in the UK), not only that but also a few nice old villages around Birmingham one of which the history is more than 500 years old, with the name of Bridgnorth, and the other village named Lichfield where the spectacular Cathedral is. i must mention here that Peter is definitely a good cook, he made a really yummy wantan mee for everyone and we have a family dinner with his son Josh and Chris. Its been glad to know them and especially the friendliness of them and the feeling of warm as if im back to my home! Besides that, we were being treated with delicious DIMSUM in a pretty elegant chincese restaurant in the chinese town, we even have our 1st fish n chips in the uk for our dinner, it was a really memorable one! wat was even more surprising me is that, Susan gave me lots of her winter clothes and Peter kept giving me his cooking paste and flavouring powder and also some cooking utensils like wok, pressure cooker and rice cooker....OMG, he even wanted to give me his TV but luckily i rejected it. Josh just made a joke that his dad would even give the car to me and the whole house will eventually belong to me, thats really laughable, LOL. well, I'vent finished praising their kindness, they even fetched us back to Notts and visited our university and treated us ice creames which me and christine have been craving it for so long. It was such a wonderful time being with them. I have gained lots of knowledge from them too,things like how to use ebay and do online bussiness...im planning to learn further about it and find a way of earning $$ online! its really tempting me for now when i really need cash $_$ how nice if you can earn money by just sitting infront of the computer, isnt it easy money?!

the selfridges in Birmingham city, one of the newest shopping paradise

the canal which can lead you to London or Manchester by boat! how nice if we sail it one day

the historical english village Bridgnorth as old as 500 years

this house was built in 1580 and stil standing firm, nice pattern of the house created by the wood

the old railway station in Bridgnorth, like those we can only find in de 15th century english movie

cooking fun in Peter's well-equipped kitchen, the birth of the highly recommended wantan mee!

the spectacular Cathedral in Lichfield, looks really gigantic and holiness

the wedding gharry rides the bride and groom to the church for a happy ending love story

the muzium of the Samuel Johnson who was the creator of the English Dictionary, now you know who has caused most students to buy it compulsory.

Peter and Susan's home sweet home, the warm living room with a warm cup of wooloong tea, wat a simple but heavenly leisure.

well, thats all for now. cant finish uploading all of the photos, you can find the rest in facebook, as usual. haha ^_^ i guess my next blog will probably be talking about my trip to Ireland, yea...just another week to go and i'll be there!!! YUN im coming!!!

jus luv Nottingham!

As you've seen from the title, yea im now in nott already!! its been one week and i cant belieave that im coping so fast and so so well than i've never expected! its actually a really nice place here in nott, as for now i meant, beacuse the weather is just nice for the human being to stay and the one thing that i must mention here is that i've met quite alot of really really super duple nice people within this week! and I realised that British is probably one of the most polite race in the world, erm...yea maybe Japanese is top in the list but British is definitely not far away from Japanese. They just love to say "thank you"...and even the public transport bus drivers also play their role in a very professional way, kept greeting "byebye goodluck thankyou x100" when you are getting down the bus and never get bored of saying that! I guess maybe i grew up in the kind of environment that the government does not really emphasise on the practice of good morality and ethics but instead they think that getting an A in pendidikan moral is more important...and so im now learning to be more polite in this brandly new environment, its really a lecture of life...

For the 1st 3 days, I've already explored to many places around Nottingham. It aint that big after all, just a few sites in the cities to be visited, we've seen the statue of Robin Hood and the Nottingham Castle, its really nothing great, but it worth a go if you are new in nott...just like me, LOL. Shopping is one of the nicest activities now because its now summer sales and I've bought my hand bag and wind breaker in the victoria centre with a super cheap price! Broadmarsh centre is a lower class shopping mall (but, victoria aint that highclass anyway...not as nice as Malaysia one) which you can find 99pence or 1pound shops! Dunkirk-the place that im currently staying now is really far from the place to shop for groceries, walking to Beeston for 20minutes is ok but when you are going back while carrying bags n bags of groceries, aha! u'll know how it feels when u try to walk back to Dunkirk. the only way to reduce the burden is probably taking Rainbow 5 which charge you 1.50pounds once onboard, not economic at all! im feeling lucky that im going to stay on campus when the term starts and Beeston is just 5/10 minutes walk from my accommodation hall, and all the bills like electricity, water, gas and internet are included in the rental which really worth the pay for sure. ^^

the old market square where i walk pass everyday to get de bus back 2dunkirk.

shopping at de city, its summer hot sales now!

tats de trent building of de university of nottingham

de nite of nottingham is when drinkers' life jus begun

i've uploaded more photos in my facebook. u might hav a visit if u r interested. ahaa...those are most importantly for my parents n relatives, and i beg u cant belieave that my dad is using facebook too, how modern-minded he is rite ^^

I’m ready to go!!

Yes yes…I think I’m mentally and physically ready to go UK! I’ve got everything prepared and I’ve done everything I wish to do before I go…but only one last thing, I haven’t cried yet. Yea, that’s the last thing that I will do before walking into the departure gate waving to my beloved family or even after stepping out from my home in Penang…ish, I know I can’t control my tears, as always…hmmm…what to do, just cry la don care even I will look stupid in front of them…

All these while, I’ve been trying to make the best of everyday, been trying to make use of the remaining time I have before leaving. I took every moment so preciously as if it’s the very last time I would do it…Yeee…how come it sounds like I’m not coming back anymore, indeed I’m really not coming for 2 years…I mean TWO years!! OMG…I just plan to do that but I don’t know whether I can do it…I think I’ll miss home till sick…choy choy choy!!

What I have done during this summer break is actually nothing special but being a little good girl in the house has made me feeling so so good. It was like long long time ago when I was always in the house helping mum with the house works, helping dad with his bakery, doing my homework on time…oh, that was nearly 10 years ago when I was a primary school kid…time flies wei >_< st="on">UK!

And then, yea I went Sarawak with my ex-housemate/future housemate (hah, we plan to stay together in the forth year in our targeted backyard dream house, don’t we?). It was definitely a memorable one especially the night stays at the Iban long house in Kuching Cultural Village and so coincident that it will be the venue of the world musical festival that Denise is visiting in this July!! One thing that I must mention in this trip is that my beloved friends (hmm, how could I forget to shout out loud their names here, they are all poppies wei ^_^ so proudly present DIANA SONG, PEK SAN, CHIEN HUI, YOKE KIM!!!) they gave a real surprise when they visited my partially home town (Penang la I mean, and you know why it is partial) They presented me a big box of pressie with 21 gifts contained inside and it was 99% HELLO KITTY’s items…*big eyes* I suspected that they could be among the members of the secret agent la, how could they manage to cover up everything until they came to Penang?! How did they do it?!! It’s so amazing yet touching!! And Chien has to bear with the checking of the immigration clearance officer for hand-carrying iron made products such as HELLO KITTY’s nail cutter…ahaha pls bear with me for typing HELLO KITTY in capital letters. Thanks and sorry to Chien for having to suffer (or enjoy >_<) the “merabah-rabah” treatment. Don’t you ter-LOL …aha, my vocabulary has gradually improved because of you guys!

the Titto Trip Part II's itinerary designed by me!!

the housemates n the surprising box from them.

the view of Sibu Town with sungai Rajang.

the Hee garden at Sibu aka Diana's home town.

the skull was hung on the....silling!

The stage of the World Musical Festival was just right in front of our window!

Traditional dance by Orang Ulu in the cultural village.

The South China Sea!! x3

Kuching the cat town.

Tr. Maling's Long house where we tasted yummy Tuak (rice wine).

the back of Diana's daddy- the great tour guide of our trip.

hmm...sorry I dont have the patience to post up all the photos especially those nice sarawak's foods that we've tried. the one person that really contributed alot in this trip is Diana's great daddy who brought us around makan main dan minum not even in Sibu but also Kuching where he purposely took a flight to there to meet us and treat us with five stars VIP services...m so touched! Thank You Uncle! oh yea, and I got to practise my hokkien with him throughout the trip, haha.

After the sarawak trip, it was followed by Penang trip where I was the unofficial tour guide. Hopefully they were not bored by me for all the activities that I've arranged, aha. However, I've got to practise as a tour guide in Penang for the 2nd time when my friends POH LING and PEI YEE visited me right after the first batch gone. We went to exactly the same places, imagine me having to visit the same places (eh Ling, we actually went to more places) and eat the same foods within one week n giving the same tour briefing...ahaha...but to the different people la. so that was the fun part for being the tour guide as you are getting familiar with the introduction, LOL.

Ling n Yee at Khoo Kongsi.

Beach walk...isnt it romantic if u r wif someone special?

Francis Light's statue inside Fort Conwallis.

Lov this one!! by LING

arr...again im lazy to post up so many nice photos taken by Ling. I wish they enjoy the trip too. Oh yea, I remembered I told Yee that Penangites were trying very hard hoping that Penang can be listed into the world heritage by UNESCO, they have been kept trying the application for 10 years...and I was moaning to her about this sad things during the heritage walk. MANATAU, jus few weeks after that, Penang has finally n officially a WORLD HERITAGE announced by the UNESCO!!! m so touched n proud eventhou im not a pure penangite...at least or hopefully the economy of the tourism industry will be getting better n better in penang.

Penang is a world heritage! so im ready to go on...ahaha. non-sense...

Hmm...actually more and more gatherings would just only accumulate my reluctancy...yamcha taihey chiongK (cantonese) just make me feel like I want it more here...but I know I can just only get it here...those activities are so pricy in the UK, once in a while can la...but not every weekend anymore >_<

HAIHZ (sigh...) for the last time, so now Siu Sien is ready to face the new life, new people, new challenge! wish me luck pls...LOL