overflow with LOVE

omg, I can't believe its almost the end of the semester, I've been so busy and everything just past by in a blink of an eye, from solving one assignment to another, from attending one lecture to another, from going to work one day after another, from joining one trip to another...its been really an eventful semester! I'm feeling contented and satisfied now, and probably its time to take a proper rest and focus on my studies which should always be my main intention in university life, right?

Just recently, I told a friend about the story of QQ, and obviously I still have not lost my feeling towards him, because I still miss him very much and was trying my best to hide my sadness whilst I was telling the lengthy and dramatic story. Its so amazing that a pet can leave such a big impact in one's life, I certainly have no idea how long is it going to take for me to stop thinking about him but definitely I will not forget QQ as long as I am living in this world. He is such a lovely pet, all because he is very loyal and sincere...no matter to whom, he is always the lively and cheerful pet that everyone loves, he does not lie or act, he is very natural which is the characteristic that can hardly find in human beings anymore. Nowadays, people always think and process data in a complicated way and show it in a way that they think its right, but very often, the feedback arent always good. well anyway...all I want to say is, QQ is just like a perfect human's friend which does not exist in reality so he turned into a dog and brought happiness to my family, and then leaving us with a feeling of sorrow but a sweet unforgettable memory. Deep down in our hearts, we know that QQ understand how we precious him and we are still waiting for his return even though it seems to be impossible. Hope drives me through...I wish QQ to live a happy life wherever he is now T.T we love you forever


going to the beach with QQ, knowing that he is leaving soon, the feeling is hard, separation is cruel...

Also, would like to thank kitesman again for showing me the existence of love, the non-selfish care and support. All I want is you right now to be beside me but unfortunately this is the only thing that I can not have...why is the world so unfair? How long I have to suffer to have something that everyone else has? Do I have a choice? Am I the one who make decision? How does a decision come to a conclusion? After some time, I realised that things are always not under your control even though you are supposed to be able to change something, its all because there are too many factors contributing to one outcome and it takes a longer time to consider and to make things happen. So, lets just see what the time can show us...feeling helpless but the continuous supply of LOVE keeps me going...


Miss our baby so much, when can I see him again? Is he kept in somewhere safe?

Another issue is, can someone suggest me the best way of announcing a relationship which has been hidden from parents for 4 years? Is there a proper way which reduces the blames to the least? tell me if you know

Hold On

The world is such an adorable place when you realise that you have someone to hold on to...

When I'm sick of socialising, I have family to hold on to, and they will never ever complain about not keeping in touch with them as often as I do with my friends, they wish to talk to me more just to make sure that I am doing all right but I just hope I can spend more time with them. They give me the freedom to do whatever I like, to make any decision I want, to live the life I want to live, yet they never get sick of supporting me, giving me the care and trust that I always needed. I can count on them whenever and wherever I am...

When I'm sick, literally sick which I don't always, I can hold on to my friends, as you know friend is the most precious gift when you're outside of your home. Eventhou sometimes I do not care much about them, I do not give the same amount of care that my friend gave me, to them, but they always show their care towards me without hesitation. Today, I'm so touched because Belachan made me a thermoflask of hot honey lemon and gave me Dequadin for my sore throat. I was wondering if I deserve to get all these treatment, as I know I do not normally do that to my friends. There might be a few times when I just simply made her unhappy or said something wrongly that hurts her feeling, but she is just too kind to remember that. I should apologise here for always not remembering what she has told me...AHAHHA my fault ok? Anyway, I just want to say, she really made me feel that I have someone to count on when I am so far away from home, thanks and I wish I can learn more from you, not your ke-tidak-apa-ness but your kindness LOL


stupid faces of us

When I need to make a complain about life, I can just blurt it out to kitesman, he is the one who always be there to listen and to explain, analyse the whole thing and tell me how to solve the problem. In my heart, I know I can hold on to him...as long as he holds on to me. I know we are getting busy, with his thesis and my lectures occupying up our time, it really needs extra patience to hold on to it. But I know we can make it, because we have faith in each other.

Maybe I look like a very independent girl (not to mention lady) to you, but I can't always take everything up myself, I need the moment of holding on to someone too...the moment where I can just be carelessness while receiving care from the others. And I sincerely know, they are always there for me to count on...

Thanks for holding on to me! muaksssss

Anyway, let me just stop being so emotional. okay...Over the summer, I found out that I am the type of girl (not yet a woman) which the facial presentation can be easily ruined by make-up. I find myself look extremely weird and not to mention ugly when I put things on my face. What's wrong with me? can I just blame on my round moon face? Well I have to say those foundations, mascaras, eyeliners, lipsticks are just not ever going to be my partner, sorry to say that to all cosmetics company out there I know its really hard to earn my money >.< below are proofs that I should not wear any make-upsss


It's Layteng's hen's nite party in Liverpool, I was extraordinary fair...wth...and the sparkling eyeshadows...almost stole all de limelight -_______-


OMG take a closer look, I've basically turned into a white rabbit, and the fact that I left my contact lens in Notts just spoilt everything no matter how nice the make-up is *.*

The end of placement, the end of summer

I know! I've been away from blogspot for 3 months!!! Most of the time has been spent in the pharmacy...I've been looking at the Green Prescriptions for bloody 3 months!!! OMG please don't show me anymore prescription until next year's summer if not I will slap you! LOL

Yeah finally I'm done with my summer placement, but it also means summer is going to an end. I'll precious the remaining two weeks holiday that I have, will be travelling with friends to Liverpool, London and Manchester! Finally I have time for myself to really explore Liverpool, I've been a tour guide in here for so many times but I have not really see the city from the way I want yet...heheh I like free and easy style...slowly discover some secret places, hidden streets that people rarely talk about...yes now that I have time, I'm going to do it! and I know...its a shame that I've been in the UK for one year plus but stil have not been to London! I'm going to do it!

Also, I want to finish up LOST which I've started back in Nottingham, good recommendation from Hon Chien really, I like the series.

here I share some interesting experience of me in the pharmacy. Last semester, I've studied about DENATURING OF CONTROLLED DRUGS in the university but have no idea how does it work. and finally, I've got the chance to do it and it was really FUN! but I cut myself thou...and I can stil see the scarr on my thumb now >.< but nevermind, NO PAIN NO GAIN right!


the denaturing kit!!! breaking and blending tablets


de combination of colours is so nice!


now is de most dangerous part of de process, i hav to say des is not de best way of getting rid de ampoules!!! I've got cut while trying to break de glass, and I suspect there were trace of morphine sulphate in my body now LOL


throw everything into de CD denaturing kit...including de broken glass...and I think my trace of fresh blood as well...LOL so sS


and finally, add water up to de line and give it a shake, swirl and here u go...de yucky yucky mixture of all CDs...you will become a monster if you accidentally consume this devil potion made by siu

Okiela...thats all for this month and I'm going to tidy up Lay Teng's house now because the house is so beautiful!!! I love staying here and they treat me so well...love them all!!! *muakkss*

Home is the best vacation destination

Guess what, I went back to Malaysia for just one week!!! I know you must be shocked, well everyone gave me the same reaction, hahahah. okay...the air ticket was very very cheap, only 430pounds return for Malaysia Airline, and yes its Malaysian airline's direct flight which includes KLIA to Penang International Airport! thanks to (swine flu), LOL for changing my mind to go back to Malaysia before graduation, by causing a great reduction in air ticket's price...last but not least, a big thank you to the most awesome family who made all of these amazing things happened, luv u all lots!

This whole week was just free and easy at home in penang and home town, made me feel really relaxing and warming...i mean the weather too LOL


the first time of me seeing penang island and penang bridge from the sky!!! *excited*

Family day to Botanical Garden, this is where we always come during the weekend for jogging and having some close to the nature activities. The once a year Flora Fest was hold at the same time when we went, my bro used my cam to take lots of closed up photos of flowers which took up lots of my cam's memory space, not gonna upload here probably in facebook one day, heheh sorry yi kor


Mummy is getting younger, don play play she is a chinese medicine sinsei now!


Dad is stil de same humourous person, we had some river adventure moment there LOL


Mari-mari, durian n manggis beli-beli


The precious one hour in TGIF


Confession to my roommie

Also, would like to use this blog to send my most sincere and deepest thank you to my ex-roommate Dee Sin as she has been a really good roommate in the past year and I know sometimes she has to bare with me with quite alot of things but she just tolerated well with me and glad that we have never had any serious big fight-in-the-room like the twin used to stay on top of our room, LOL. Here, I would like to apologise if there's anything which I have done that made you feel unhappy and angry, please forgive me. I know throughout this year, we've been coupled up to become quite a good cook, I will certainly miss those dishes that we've created together, those time that we hold events in our room, those stressful time when we didnt talk to each other but dating with our handouts and books day and night, and the time when we had little secret chat in our room...hmmm...they are all good memeory to be kept forever in my heart. Last but not least, I want to say THANK YOU again for your little gift and touching notes in my birthday card. I have not prepared anything for you but an effort to bring our friendship becomes closer in the future! Hope that you will have a good time staying in Dunkirk and will visit whenever I smell something nice at BGP from the direction of Dunkirk hahahahahah


stupid thing we've done in our room


she teman-ed me to shop for souveniors n take photos of beeston to show it to my family, so sweet rite

hmmm due to having inconsistent internet connection in my current address now, I don't think I have anymore patience to wait for the slow uploading time, will update again when the internet gets better.

CAOZ...

I've got a real 'French Kiss' today!

OMG now i know why people say french is the sexiest people in the world, hahaha JER VIA BIANG MESI
learnt a new french language today! it means 'im fine thank you'

today is actually my last day of working in the Rutland Hall (well...hopefully is the last day only for this semester, and im always hoping to work with the same boss and colleagues again next semester!). the french colleague gave me a real French Kiss hahahha of course I returned her with a big MUAKSSS. to be honest, this is my first time kissing a female, out of my expectation that actually made me feel really nice. I hope she will be doing fine after this, as she said she might be leaving the UK and go back to Itali for a job in a chinese restaurant, I wished her all the very best, take care my dear friend eventhou I only get to know you better since today. hahahaha

Also, today is my first day of working in the Pot Wash! that is why i have had the chance to know her better as she is the pot wash lady and i am usually a dining room lady. MALANG lah i could have worked in the Dining Room for the Formal Dinner tonight but all thanks to my stupidity that I didnt know the attire for formal dinner is white collar shirt and black skirt. I just went to work with my usual black polo and long pants, was kind of shocked when i saw all my fellow colleagues and friends (was shocked the second time when i saw YIMENG and others working in MY HALL!) were wearing white shirt. luckily I've got a nice boss who didnt even scold me or angry at me, but gave me options to choose what I would like to work instead, so kind of him right? heheheh

the strange emo-ish Jamaica guy in that pot wash room was treating me so nice today, so unusual of him hahhaa. probably because i sort of giving him 'warning' before the start of work, because i told him:

" U must teach me everything that i nid to know, i don wanna make any mistake, i don wanna be scolded by u"
then obviously i ended my sentence with LOL. anyway, what i wanna say is eventhou he is really fierce sometimes and he is really annoying all the time, BUT he can be a nice person when he wants to be, he should be told that people loves him this way, yea anyone wanna volunteer? hahah dare u!

hmmmm my ALAIN DELON shoes were sacrified for this special night, she was tough all the time and made her very best to serve me until the last day of the catering service, how lovely she was. at the very end, she was submerged by water due to a small leakage underneath, making my feet swimming all night long...thanks my ALAN DELON you have done a great job! (I will remember you until i get my new formal heels! heheheh)

and yea i think everyone in the kitchen is so nice today, its really good when seeing everyone working in harmony and joking and teasing each other, just like a gang of crazy people. im going miss them seriously >.<

and then here i have my D.I.Y SUSHI recipe to share with you guys! i made it 2 weeks ago for a one week supply of my lunch meal! hahaha easy peasy and save alot of time cooking in the afternoon when i usually don feel like moving alot LOL.


u need eggs rice seaweed carrots mushrooms cucumbers tunas prawns mayonaise


then, cut them into appropriate long shapes and cook de ingredients accordingly, this time i made four main kinds which are tuna, egg, prawn and mushroom. while carrots, cucumbers and spring onions are vege for all the sushi.


rice is cooked and preferably mixed with white vinegar, its time to wrap it up now!


once wrapping is one, cut them into the length that you like ( i suggest you to get a sharp knife you will know why when you see the next step)


well...you can see that the shape is abit cacated all thanks to the blunt knife and i had to press my little weak sushi bar and taking some hard time to even cutting off the thin seaweed layer. so yea, important advice

but anyway, the SUSHI tasted fabulous and i hope in the future, i will have the mood and time to do it again with an improved version or new recepi, and also using a new sharp knife heheheheh

okiela thats all for now, will post up after the exam which will be on the 18/22/26/28 of June. very soonnnnnnnnnn

Good Luck to myself!

Biggest Congratulation to 刘玉枝医疗美容诊所

my beautiful mummy now upgraded to become a doctor!

Today is my dearest mummy's big day, is the opening of her own chinese traditional medicines clinic in our home town - pantai remis!!! I'm so proud of her for her achievement in the medical field. Her spirits and interest towards being a sinsei and her never-stop-learning attitude is something that I must learn from her. She is indeed a role model for everyone in the family especially me and my sister because she has been not only a great mother but also in terms of managing her career and fullfilling her wish to be a doctor to help patients to stay away from illnesses and diseases and most importantly to educate them the prevention of getting sick as you know, prophylactic is always better than treatment.

The clicic was named after her name because her name is actually very special when pronounced in either mandarin or hokkien, its rhythm literally means 'save one stick for me' hahahahaha and then we had this joke that mummy is saving one stick of needle to accupunctual them. okok...maybe you dont find it funny >.<

And yesterday was my happiest day in the UK! A good news early in the morning from my dad just made the best start of my day and I seriously could not believe what I saw in the email. All I hav to say is thank God and I think I'm the most blessed kid in the world!!!!!!!!!!!!

Finally, I would like to thanks my family for being such a great support in everything I want to do, eventhou we're far apart but I can feel all of them in my heart at anytime and everywhere. Love you guys the most!


A family dinner is the best thing I'm craving for right now!!!

Skipped February's post, its the end of March now!

All rite, first of all lets make a summary of de missing post with pictures.


de nite of red wine n heart to heart talk


Its been a bad weather day, overcome all obstacles to visit Gimms lol u can ignore me


Malaysian nite with formal and traditional dress


me n christ visiting gimms in brinsley


my first 鸡腿饭 in uni's recharge cafe! yummy

Hello guys, the title could tell how busy I was since February. I have alot of reasonable excuses not to update here, one of it being no body really care about it, hahaha and the other reason being I was really having no time even watching drama shows (its been ages since my last HONGKONG's drama aka gems of life T_T), not even to mention BLOGGING! Now that I'm writing here its because its the start of Easter Holiday now, and amazingly it lasts for four weeks long woohoooo~~~ such a longing holiday ever since the last one in December but that was not considered as a holiday as it was a break to study, not break from study -______-

Now, I have all the time in the world to waste MAUAHAHHA. Thinking in mind that this four weeks break is going to past very fast, it makes me even more precious my spare time now, trying to make use of every single seconds to do something which I have missed out since February where my life has been fulled of work, work and more work. So...wondering what kinda of work that I'm talking about? hehehhee...its CASUAL WORK! The truth is, I was working part time in the University Catered Hall at night for almost four weeks, 6 days in a week and 2.5 hours a day. For me, it was not actually a long hour as during that period of time when I've started working, I could not feel that the time was flying so fast, would not even have time to pause and relax awhile, its actually busy like hell when the people started coming into the hall for their dinner. Wondering what kinda tasks that I engaged to? OKAY..its like this, if you happened to stay in catered hall before, then you know there is this person who scoopes and serves the foods to the students when they are Q-ing up for their foods, I was playing this role exactly! Everyday, my most frequently used phrases would be 'NEXT PLEASE!''YES PLEASE!''THANK YOU!''would you like rice?''This is vegetarian!'lol, I'm so freaking used to saying all these phrases now, so sick of saying them too. To be honest, I like my job very much, I hope to continue working if possible after the break but it seems that exam will just be around the corner which makes life so tense and less likely to have time for working. Anyway, I will still wish to stay back with this job in the future if I have the opportunity to. What I really want to say is (quoted from LEEHOM lol), working in the UK is damn great fun and its probably the best experience that an international student should gain because you get to mix with people while expanding your network at the same time improving your english communication skills! well...most importantly, earning POUNDS is nevertheless the most rewarding bits of coming to UK!

So yea, piece of advice here for all Malaysian Friends out there in the UK, if you find your life too dull or boring, just instill some colours into it by working or volunteering in some interesting events, you will definitely feel and see the difference if you try it out.

One more thing to share here, its actually nothing to be proud of but just something that I thought it would never happen in my life, not even 0.00000001% would it have any connection to me! BUT unfortunately, it has just happened on me! Its another story to serve as another piece of advice to the young ladies out there no matter you are in the UK or Malaysia or anywhere in the world, LOL. erm...suddenly don't feel like telling it here...erm...I think I will save it until I'm ready to tell, I'm not mentally ready yet because this matter has left a big impact on my life, on the way I perceive Friendship, it greatly influences the way I mix with male's friend after the event. This matter has also made me to think more maturely about relationship, not my own's relationship but friend's relationship and how it could influence your friendship one day if something is not done in a mature way, for an innocent and less-experienced adult like me (I know I should be behaving like an adult but as I've said, I'm not psychologically nor physically ready yet, because I'm still dressing like a teenager, because I'm still wearing jeans instead of trouser, because I'm still saying childish words like I always used to) its actually quite a good lecture for me yet also an interesting chapter in my life as at least I have this experience that I can share to my grandchildren next time in the far future. hahaha if you are curious enough and would like to hear the story, let me know and I would tell you everything, I would turn my sadness and anger into energy to tell so that I'm able to finish the story...only when she has apologised to me. I'm still waiting for the day, still giving her the last chance from my kindest heart. No one can forgive such a silly act from your friend...but I can...just an apologise, lets end the troublesome conflict, will you?

sorry guys, I will save the story for my next post maybe, its going to be very dramatic and I'm sure you'll be surprised by this real-life story, telling from the mouth of the real-life victim. Here, the victim has to stop writing now and re-heat her dinner as she has got plenty of foods packed from the catered hall! Don worry too much as the victim has partially let go and brought herself out of this disasterious event and today she has bought a bunch of chrysanthemum flowers to cheer her day, and to welcome the secret visit of springs! Furthermore, she has bought a coat and a jacket for spring's use, she just cant reject the temptation of sunshine and blossom, she is of course mentally ready to indulge herself in the SPRINGS, which is a great season bringing new life to everything!